Seena's rant journal

06.10.17

...it's 23.36 pm I haven't sleep yet I have to wake up at 3 am for breakfast, work at 7 am till noon and (probably, insyaallah) "home" after. This week, no, these months. I've been inactive in any social media except whatsapp, line, wattpad, and instagram (late update so no stories menu, etc). No facebook, where I usually look for news. No twitter where I usually rant. I feel... Lost? Yes, big time. It feels like I disconnect with people around. Omg yes I do have friends IRL but best friend...? Guess not. My best friend live far away from city I currently live and we can't talk like every minutes, she can't keep heard me rant everytime, etc. I'm not really a
verbal person. I'd rather write what's bother me all the time that's why I love twitter, for rant. But I don't think that's a good way to release your stress over something... I mean... No one really know who you are right? It's no different with you talk to wall or scream in your pillow. No one really give their encouraging words like you wish they did nor even read them. Even if they're actually read them, they won't really mind it. It's none of their business afterall... It's mine, my way to relief my own stress.

I embarrassed tbh write this book. Back to concept, no one really care, but I give my own hope to think that someone actually read this and give me some feedback, haha what a whore looking for sensation and attention..