A Loaded Smile - Kellic

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I didn't even stay I ran out of there so fast and back too the room. I opened the door slammed it shut and ran into the bathroom. I needed something, then noticed that there were paperclips sitting there so I grabbed one and I scratched it against my skin until I bled, over and over again. There were tears rolling down my face too. I haven't self harmed since that day he broke up with me. After a few minutes Kellin opened he door.

"Hey, hey, I thought you said you were supposed to be at-"

"It's him-he's there-I can't" I said.

"What" he said.

Then Erin came running into the bathroom where Kellin and I are.

"Vic you have to go back to see Dr. Weeaks" she said.

"I can't. I won't" I said quickly.

"Why not?" She asked.

"I just can't" I said.

"Um can you give us a few minutes?" Kellin said to her.

"Alright, but he has to go back I'll wait out here" she said. Kellin nods. And she leaves us and he turns back to me.

"Vic calm down, and tell me again what happened" he says.

"I walked in and so saw my mother and him, my ex, he was there" I tell him.

"Ok" he said.

"Ok?, ok what? You have no idea what he did to me" I say.

"Ok will you tell the doctor what he did if he wasn't there?"

"No, no one can know. And I don't want to see him ever again, . . . WHY IS HE HERE, HE HAS NO RIGHT AFTER ALL THE SHIT HE DID TO ME!" I yelled the last part.

"Will you tell me what he did?" He asks me. I shook my head no. It's not that I didn't want to tell him, I just can't relive that much hurt again.

"Sorry but it's to painful to talk about" I tell him. He nods in understanding.

Then the door opens again and Erin come in again.

"Come on Vic everyone is waiting and we have things to do today" she says.

"On one condition, you get rid of everyone from that room" I tell her.

"Fine, it'll only be you and the doctor" she said.

Then she pulled out a walky talky type is thing and I realized she was talking to the doctor and then we walked out of the room I share with Kellin and we go back to the doctors office.

When we got there she opens the door and I walk in it was empty, just the Dr Weeaks was in there. I sat down in the seat that was not occupied by anyone the first time I entered.

"Good morning Victor" he said to me.

"Vic" I corrected.

"Sorry, Vic. Now are you going to tell me why you ran out earlier and why I had to get rid of-?" He asks. I shook my head no.

"And why not?"

"Because I can't" I tell him.