A Loaded Smile - Kellic

6

After a few days things were okay, I noticed the difference in Kellin once the medication they gave to him wore off he's like a completely different person. I was thinking of telling Erin like she told me to when he wasn't taking the meds but he tells me not to. I don't think that's a good idea, but I'll give him a few hours or another day and I'll mention it to her if he doesn't take it.

I still haven't told Dr Weeaks anything yet about why I tried, it's been a little over a week since that day now and I'm still pissed that I wasn't successful. But I'll just have to try harder next time. I still don't belong here. I don't have a problem like they think I do. I know I don't. I'll have to try and escape somehow. Cause he says that if I don't start telling him what's going on I'll be in this nut house for months. I'd rather kill myself, oh, wait I already tried that.

Kellin is sitting there at his desk drawing, there's only a twenty minutes until Erin pops her head and tells us to go down for dinner. I have no appetite to eat today, I didn't eat at breakfast or lunch, I probably should, but I just don't have the motivation today.

Knock knock

Just as I thought, and Erin popped her head in and told us to go to dinner. We walked out of the room and followed her. I saw Tony and I walked with him and Jaime was there too. We got on the line but since I wasn't really hungry I didn't take anything. They just looked at me. I know I have too but I don't care. I saw Kellin hurry to the back with a tray and Erin following behind him. I guess she wants to make sure he'll eat it. Then she stopped and saw me. Fuck. Next thing I know he's right next to me.

"Vic" she said him a warning tone.

"Yes" I said sarcastically.

"Where's your tray?" She asks.

"I'm not hungry" I say uninterested.

"I don't care Vic, you have too, it's a part of the rules" she says.

"I don't give a fuck about your stupid rules Erin" I said sarcastically again.

"Ok, that's it your coming with me..." the paused and then grabbed my arm and dragged me away from the table and out of the cafeteria.

"I'm getting real tied of your attitude Vic-"

"And I'm getting tired of being in here but I can't help that" I said cutting her off. She rolled her eyes at me.

"-it's rude and ignorant Vic. Your just being a brat and stubborn and your going to talk to Dr Weeaks, whether you like or not" she says.

"I don't think so" I say. 

"Yes you are" she threatens.

We reached his office and she knocked on the door and then opened it.

"What's going on Erin?" He asked.

"Yeah, what the hell is going on Erin" I said.

"Don't be a smartass Vic" she seethes to me. "Doctor, Vic wasn't eating and is attitude needs a major change" she said more calmly.

"Well look who has attitude now" I say.

"Vic lay off " Dr. Weekes said to me. 

Then Erin left the room. And dr. Weekes asked me questions. Here we go again.

Three hours later and it's almost time before they shut all the lights off. That is until Kellin comes up to me.

"What's wrong?" He asks.

"You tell me? I thought you knew everything?" I retort.

"I do I just want to hear you say it" he says.

"Why?"

"Because I like to listen to others talk" he says.

"I don't know" I say.

"Yes you do" he states.

"No I really don't" I say.

"Yes you do, your just scared to let anyone in and tell anyone the truth, so you don't feel hurt, when in actuality you bottling it all up is hurting you just the same. You think your over it when you're not and face it Vic, if you don't tell them then you'll be here longer and you don't seem like you want to be here" he says to me.

Ok that was actually really thoughtful and smart of him to say. I know it's true but I'll never admit it him.

"Ok, that was really smart to say but it's not true" I semi lied.

"Yes it is Vic, I can tell you're lying to me" he says.

"Whatever" I say to him just as the lights go out.

"Well good night" I say and I lay down on my bed and he scurried back to his desk.

*Three weeks later*

I still haven't said a word about what Alex did to the doctors and it's been a month. Their quite annoying when it comes to wanting me to open up. I'm hoping they just give up and send me home so I finish what I started a month ago.

The other day right before I was going see Dr Weeaks, I accidentally opened the wrong door and I saw something I shouldn't have. It was Tony, he was making out with Erin, I didn't recognize her at first but then I did. They didn't even know I opened the door so I closed it and kept on my way to the bathroom which was the door next to the closet they were in. I haven't really asked him about it. But I don't really feel like I should. I was mostly just jealous.

Everyday that goes by Kellin keeps reminding me that this could all be over with, if I just tell them and then they can do what they have to do and I'll be able to go home. Also that I could have avoided being here for so long. But he just doesn't understand why I can't. And I'm certainly not telling a guy who gets paid to try and help. I never understood doctors like Dr. Weeaks why does he care so much about getting me to talk to him about it when he really doesn't care about me or my problems, not that I have any that need his help, and just wants his pay check and he can go home.

Kellin had an episode last week so they knew he didn't continue his meds, so Erin has to now be on top of him to make sure he's taking them, everyday. He tells me how annoying it is, but he's here long enough that they know he's not going to take it on his own. So he's been on his meds for a week and we actually are getting along to be considered friends.

We talk a little more. But he tries to get me to open up to him. But it's not happening. I know I'm being a stubborn asshole, but you would be too if you were me.

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"Viic" I hear my beautiful boyfriend say has he's cooking dinner for us. I can't believe how far we've come since we've both been out of high school and I can't see myself without him. I love that tall nerd with all of my being. I know he's the one. Alex is the one for me I know it. That's what's wonderful about us.
Plus also looking back at how I was when we meet I've come that far too. It's all because of him. He's my rock that keeps me grounded.

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Well I was so wrong about that.

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A/N: sorry it's been so long since I last updated this, but here's a little filler chapter to carry you until the next one. I know it's shorter but I hope you like it anyway. I know that will be a short story. So yeah, hope you enjoyed. Stay awesome =)