A Loaded Smile - Kellic

7

*One week later*

I had no choice but I finally gave in and told Dr. Weeaks, three days ago when I had my session with him. And since then I haven't really spoken to anyone. I haven't said anything in group either. I didn't want to talk to anyone cause it'll make me vulnerable again. I can't have that, not again. I've felt weak once too many times. After all the shit with Alex, then telling Dr. Weeaks, so I can't have that again.

Now I'm just sitting on my bed in the the room with Kellin. He has his back to me and he's over at his desk muttering to himself and I assume drawing cause he's holding a pencil. But it's whatever. I've been ignoring everyone even Kellin even though were sorta friends. I just can't get attached, it'll only hurt in the end when I get out of here and finish myself off like i should have before I was even in here.

"What's wrong with you?" I hear Kellin ask.

"Nothing" I say flatly.

"Yes there is I can tell my your lack of enthusiasm and hostility, your body language is obvious" he says.

"Aren't you supposed to know what's wrong, like your supposed to be convincing me?" I ask.

"I told you last time I like to hear you say it" he retorted.

"Look I don't want to talk about it again, alright, I just want to distract myself from everything going on" I say.

"You told the doctors didn't you?" He asks.

"Well if you must know, yes, yes I did, ok"

"And now you don't want to feel anything anymore so your trying to distract yourself, well if you want a distraction I can help with that" he says.

"Oh really and what kind of distraction could you possibly help wi-"

I'm suddenly cut off when he leans in and kisses me. I don't know what to think, my mind has gone blank. I started to kiss back cause honestly what else am I going to too. Then he pulled away smiling at me, and went back to his desk. It was a nice kiss, not going to lie about that.

Well let's just say that it definitely distracted me, cause now I'm think about that kiss and how much I liked it even though I shouldn't. Oh crap what am I getting myself into.

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~Kellin's pov

I've wanted to kiss Vic since I saw him, he's always been really cute and he's like the only one who ever talks to me. Plus he said he wanted a distraction so I gave him one. What surprised me the most was him kissing me back. I didn't expect him to.

Nine just hopped onto my lap, and Kelsey is sitting on my bed glaring at me, I don't know why though. She seems mad, but why? What did I do to get her mad at me?

"Kellin!" She yells at me.

I jump cause he scared me.

"What?"

"Why did you do that Kellin" I hear Kelsey ask me.

"Do what?" I ask.

"The kiss?" She states.

"What's the big deal he cute" I say to her.

"Kellin I seriously don't think it's a good idea getting attached and all, he's going to get better and leave eventually" She says.

"Leave me alone!" I shouted at her.

Then I realized that I was still in the room with Vic, and he was looking at me. To him it looks like I'm talking to myself when I'm not. Then he speaks up and Kelsey leaves me alone, good I can't deal with here right now.

"Hey Kellin can I ask you something?" He asks

"Sure" I say

"Well a while back you said that you had just started living with your grandparents when everything started, so what happened to your real parents?" He asks me.

"Oh well, um, my mother and sister are dead and my fathers in jail" I said to him.

"What happened?"

"Um, well they think that my schizophrenia started because of what happened as like a coping mechanism to that. You see my father was an alcoholic and he was always between jobs, so there were a lot of financial problems in my house. My mother didn't work because she took care of me and my sister. So my parents would argue about money a lot. So what happened was my father came home from presumably a bar cause he smelled of alcohol again, and then he was in the kitchen with my mom, I was in the living room watching tv. So I didn't think anything of it. . ." I paused.

". . .Then I heard then arguing, I was a daily thing now. I could see them clearly being the open floor plan of the house you know. Anyway after about ten minutes of yelling back and forth my father must of snapped. I happened to glance over to the kitchen, and I saw my grab my mom by the throat and he banged her head against the counter and was out immediately. I was shocked. I couldn't believe my eyes. Then my sister Katie came down from her room and asked what was going on but I couldn't speak to tell her not to go in there. But she saw mom on the floor, and went over to her. But dad was still fuming and did the same to Katie. I was petrified I couldn't wrap my head around it. I was frozen in fear. Then I saw my dad looking at me. My heart was pounding so hard. But I couldn't move. But before he could get to me I heard the sirens coming down the block. And my dad ran out the front door. Only he was never a fast runner so they caught him. There were three officers that came into the house a female and two guys. The woman cop came over to me to try and get me to move or say something but I couldn't. Then I suddenly burst into tears, I must have just realized what was going on. The woman cop lead me out of the house and into the back of the car. I kept saying "where am I going to go now" that's when I saw my mother and sister coming out of the house on stretchers covered. And I heard the cops saying that they were dead. The ambulance left. I didn't even see it go into the house. But they took me to the police station and asked me some questions, so I told them about my parents and everything, then they asked if I had any relatives nearby so I told them my grandparents live outside of town, and that's about everything. Oh and sir sort of took a looking like my dad, that why he's the scariest and always trying to attack me." I explain to him.

"Wow Kellin, that's a lot shit you went through" He says to me.

"Yeahh," I said trailing off.

"Mind telling me a little about you now?" I ask him.

"Alright I guess I do owe you a little" he says.

Now he's telling me me about his family, I knew I just like to hear him say it. It's fascinating how he talks and his voice is to die for. I wish I had a voice like that, then I'd never shut up. But we can't all be perfect. So I'm stuck being this way.

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Short filler chapter to keep the story going. I'm sorry I haven't updated in a long time. But this story is going to be very short so only 3 chapters left. I don't know when the next one will be but I promise it won't be this long. Plus I'm going to be publishing my new story so please check it out. Thanks! Stay awesome =)