Bangtan love (BTS x reader)

Chapter 10 ( sad )

JUNGKOOK'S POV

„Hey Jungkook are you awake?" Jin opened the door to his room. I was sitting on the floor. My head was resting on my knees. When Jin entered my room he kneeled beside me and start shoking me gentlely.„What is it hyung?" I raised my head slowly.

„Have you cryed all night long until you fell asleep? Sorry for telling you that but you look horrible." „I know that myself. Don't worry I'm fine."

„Don't tell me that your fine. Is it because you have to leave Y/N ?"„Why can't she come with us?" I whispered and placed my forehead back on my knees. „You know this isn't working." Jin lay his arm around me. „I know." „I'm sorry for telling you something you don't want to hear again but you still have to go to school." I shocked my head. „I don't want to."

„So you don't want to see her on your last day at school?" I looked up. Why does he allways know how to convince me? So I got up, helped Jin to get up as well and went straight to the bathroom. It was my last day at school so I should look good. At least better that I do now.

Forty minutes passed and I  made my way to school. „Hey Jungkook." I heard a vocie behind me. Somehow I was hoping that Y/N is calling me but it was Namjoon. „Hey there Hyung." I said after he came over to. „Is something the matter? Is it because of the trip. The fact that we are moving? Don't worry it will be alright."

„How is it possible that everyone can deal with the move? Like if there is nothing to worry about it." Namjoon watched at some birds flying across the blue sky. When his gaze went down and he was facing me his expression got serious. „Your wrong. We all have worries. And not just a few. We are just trying to see the best in our situation. You might think that it isn't a big deal for us. But to leave your family and everything you know behind isn't easy at all."

I was surpriesed. His serious voice, talking about his fear was kinda fascinating. I never heard him talking to me so serious. I am always the dongsaeng to tease. But right now I can understand all he feels . I wanted to tell him how much but „I see." was all I could say.

I was in the school at my locker alone when Hoseok made his way towards me. „Hello. Rap Monster told me that you are worried. Is there anything you wanna talk about? You know that I'm your hyung who is always there for you when you are in trouble." „Thanks. But I'm fine. You're already helping me enough as long you stay as hopefull as always alright?" Hoseok smiled widely and nodded a few times. „I will do that." he turned around and went in class.

Some hours passed our third lesson had started. I haven't seen Y/N in break. Was she even in school? Maybe she is at home. Or probaply I haven't observed the surrounding carfully enought. I shored my head on my hand at try to focus on the lesson without succes.

There were just to many questions in my head. Will we get popular or is everything we are giving up for nothing? Will we have time to do something else rather that practice? But the most important question is if I'm going to see Y/N again?

„Mr. Jeon please pay attention to the class." My teacher pointed at me with her book. „Is everthing alright with you, you are a little bit pale. Are you not feeling well? Do you wan't to go to the nurse?"„No. I mean Yes. I mean I'm fine I don't have to go to the nurse.I was just lost in my minds."

Everyone was laughting at me but I didn't care. I was never going to see them again anyways. The lesson passed by and the school was finished.Infront of the school gate I waited about a half hour for Y/N but she wasn't coming. When I arrived at my place I was thinking if I should ring at Y/N's door. But I decided that she need some time for herself.

The end of the day was boring. I watched some movies with Jin, called my mom, showered and went to sleep. Although I could't sleep.„Tomorrrow we have to pack our stuff don't forget the necessary things . Don't worry to much okay?" The last words Jin said after he wished me a good night and left my room. He sure is like my mother but at the same time my brother. It was a weird feeling.

I let out a breath and closed my eyes. They were hurting because I was starring to long at the ceiling without blinking. Will everything be alright?