Mute ~ Joshler

chapter eight

"Well I mean, yeah I talk," Tyler said shyly.  "Why dont you talk at school?" Josh asked "I dont like my voice, and a lot of people used to make fun of it, so, I just stopped talking," Tyler said rubbing his arm and sitting on his bed.

"Tyler," Josh said and walked over to sit next to Tyler "I love your voice."   Then there was a moment of silence and they both stared at the black shag carpet. 

                   Tyler's POV

No one's ever told me my voice was beautiful before.  It made my cheeks red so I looked at the floor and didn't say anything so he wouldn't notice. 

"Thank you," I whispered rubbing my face hoping the hot feeling would go away.  "It just really surprises me that no one told you," Josh said shaking his head.

"What? Told me what?" I asked looking at him "how beautiful your voice was, how beautiful you are," Josh said, looking into my eyes. 

"I-I think you should go," I said nervously "What? Why?" Josh  asked surprised.  "You-I," I couldn't find words. 

"I understand," Josh said looking down "Wait," I said "huh?" He said hoping for explanation.  "I'll talk to you tomorrow at school," I sighed. 

"Oh, okay," Josh said, obviously upset.  "I'm sorry," I said but he was already out of my room.

I could see him walking out of my house from my window. He walked slowly and put in earbuds. 

I felt bad but the feeling inside me was awful.  It felt like, what do people call it? Butterflys okay, I guess that could do. 

I wish I could be normal and just stop freaking out about everything. 

I guess you could say he stole my air catcher. 

"Tyler!" My mom called from behind my door "dinner," she said.  "Okay mom," I said enthusiastically. 

I felt like talking more, after all, my crush told me my voice was beautiful. 

"Hey guys," I said happily sitting on a dark brown chair.  "You're enthusiastic today," my mom said surprised.  "Yeah what happened," Madison asked "nothing," I said and looked at my plate. 

Spaghetti.  I started eating my garlic bread first.  "So, how's softball, Maddy?" My dad asked "its great, when we were at practice today I got to bat and on my very first try I hit a homie," she said acting like she was swinging a bat. 

I clapped happily.  "Good job," I said.  "So Tyler, are you going to keep talking, or is this just temporary?" Jay asked "I frowned.  "Jay," Zack whispered annoyed. 

"I think I'm going to keep it up," I said "Good for you sweetheart," my mom said and patted me on the back as I took a bite of spaghetti. 

After dinner I went off to bed.  My thoughts were swallowing me as I was drifting off to sleep. 

I was thinking about Josh.  And how he 'stole my air catcher' I, actually, was thinking about those four words a lot.

I won't fall in love with falling.