Purposely Perfect

Chapter 17

Nicole's POV

The drive back to Harry's house was quite until Harry spoke up,

"Nicole, your life will get better."

"When Harry? I have been waiting for so long. And what about you? When is your life going to get better?"

"It already has since you came into it."

I loved this boy. If only he knew how much.

"Harry?"

"Hm?"

"When life hands you lemons what do you do?"

"Make orange juice." He smiled glancing over at me, then his eyes back on the road. I laughed. It felt good to laugh. I looked over at him and something caught my eye.

"HARRY!"

He slammed on the breaks, but then quickly pulled over to the side of the road.

"OH MY GOD WHAT? WHAT? WHAT'S THE MATTER? ARE YOU OKAY?"

"What the hell is this?" I said holding his wrist and pointing to 3 fresh cuts in his wrist. He wouldn't make eye contact with me.

"Harry..." I said soothingly.

"Babe, I'm so sorry, I thought I lost you, and I just, I don't know..."

"It's okay Harry." I said looking at my lap. "Really, it happens."

"Nicole, let me see your wrists." Dang, was he smart.

"We need to get home."

"Nicole..."

""Harry, no."

He wasn't having it anymore and he just snatched my wrists and found my multiple cuts.

"This is all my fault." Harry said looking down at his lap and shaking his head.

"No. It was my fault, it is my body and I hurt it. not you." He looked up at me, and I wiped one of his tears away from his cheek with my thumb.

"But I caused you to hurt yourself, because I'm such a god damn idiot!" He said raising his voice.

"How about we drop both of the situations, and lets promise not to cut, ever again." I suggested.

"Pinky promise?" He asked.

"Pinky promise." I answered and we hooked pinkies.

Harry's POV

Nicole had fallen asleep a little after our promise. I think I can keep it, it will be a whole lot easier with her in my life. I turned off the car and walked over to Nicole's side I opened the door and was debating on whether to wake her up or carry her to bed. She started to snore softly. Option 2 it is. I carefully placed my hands under her and picked her up, and I accidentally hit her head on the top of the car.

"Oh my gosh Nicole, I'm sorry!"

"Freaking styles." She mumbled while rubbing her head. But she soon fell back asleep. I chucked at her. She is funny when she sleeps.

I brought her up to our bedroom safely, besides almost tripping up the stairs, and I set her on our bed, taking off her shoes and tucking her in. I was about to walk out when she said,

"Please stay with me."

I turned around to look at her and she had her eyes closed but she was pouting her lip. How could I say no?

I took off my shirt and skinny jeans, replaced them with sweatpants and got in bed with Nicole.

"Goodnight Nicole." I said.

"Goodnight Styles." She said.

But she wasn't ready to go to sleep. She started kissing my neck. She put her hand up my shirt and rested her hand there. I accidentally let out a small moan making her smirk against my neck. She started to pull my shirt off. I grabbed her wrist stopping her.

"What's the matter?" She asked. "Do you not want to?"

I just stared at her embarrassed that I've never had sex before.

"You're a virgin... Aren't you?" She asked as if she already knew.

I didn't answer and looked down.

"Harry, it's alright. We don't have to if you don't want to." She smiled. I love this woman. She understands me. She laid back down and turned off the lamp.

"Goodnight Harry." She said not sounding a bit hurt or mad.

I sat there and thought.... I have wanted her to be my first since 7th grade and right now is my chance. So take it while you have it.

"Nicole?"

"Hmm?"

"How many times have you had sex?" I said not trying to sound awkward.

"Well I never really wanted to, Dan always practically raped me having sex with him. He's the only person I've done it with."

"Did...you, you know.... Love him?"

"No." She said immediately. "I have never "made love" if that's what your intending."

"You love me don't you?" I asked.

"Of course."

"Then, do you want to make love?"

She smiled at me, I leaned in towards her neck, me now kissing hers. I pulled her shirt off just leaving her in her bra. I will admit I was nervous. But I loved her so damn much that it doesn't matter.

She pulled off my shirt and stared at me like I was like god damn Pringles heaven. I smirked at her and she noticed me watching her and leaned in and kissed me. I never wanted this moment to end.

I bet you can predict how tonight ended, with love.

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I woke up to Nicole, weakly pushing my arms off of her. I let her go because she probably had to go to the bathroom,wouldn't want her biting me again. She stood up and headed over to the bathroom but tripped on my jeans and shirt, she just laid there. I jolted out of bed. And went to her side. She was snoring. Did she trip and fall asleep again? Gosh this was hilarious.

"Nicole?" I said shaking her. "Nicole?"

"Hmmm?" She said.

"You're on the floor."

"What the hell am I doing on the floor?" she mumbled looking around her.

"You kinda tripped and fell, but then went back to sleep on the floor."

She chuckled and got back up and walked over to our bed and hopped in. I pulled her in close to me, and let out a long sigh.

"Night Harold." She chuckled.

"Night Payne." I chuckled back.