Camren Oneshots

Tomorrow

A/N: I SUCK AT WRITING. SERIOUSLY. FUCKING WRITER'S BLOCK.

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We were sitting next to each other on the sand, the cool Miami wind nipping at our skin. We were both looking up at the sky, marvelling on its beauty. The stars shined brightly, and the moon is at its fullest. Everything is peaceful. We were just two people bound together by the ropes of love.

"What are we?"

The silence that was once cloaking us was lifted by the sound of her voice. Something shifted in the air around us.

I averted my eyes from the sky and looked at her, gracing my eyes with her magnificent side profile, although everything about her is.

"What do you mean?" I asked, tilting my head to the side.

She averted her eyes from the sky to look at me.

"Exactly what I said. What are we?"

I gulped the lump that was forming in my throat. I looked away and settled on staring at the water before us.

"What do you want us to be?" I asked, my voice sounding small and insecure.

"I want you to be mine."

She said it with so much conviction. Like it was just that easy. Like everything around us doesn't matter as long as I was hers.

"Camila, you know we can't be together." I sighed sadly.

"But why not? We go on dates. We kiss. We say i love you to each other. We do things that couples do. We're practically together, a label is just what's missing." She said, sounding hurt.

"We do all that, yes. But we do that in secret. You know how my parents are. You know how people at our school are. You know it's complicated. You know that we can't be who you want us to be." I said solemnly.

She scoffed loudly and I flinched.

"So you're saying that we continue hiding? You're saying that you don't want to be with me because of what others might think?" She asked, incredulously.

I remained silent. I was still staring straight ahead, not daring to look at her.

"Lauren we've been seeing each other behind everyone's backs for almost 2 years now. We already admitted that we have feelings for each other! What the fuvk is stopping you?!" She raised her voice.

Tears started to well up my eyes.

"I'm scared." I said in a small voice.

Silence settled upon us so I dared my eyes to look up at her.

Her eyes exuded sympathy. She cupped my cheeks affectionately and I found myself leaning onto her touch.

"Baby, you know I'll always be by your side, right? We'll face all these bullshits together. You and me. Just please be mine. Officially." She said softly.

I closed my eyes tightly, tears streaming down my face. I can't. We can't. I'm scared. They'll know. They'll disown me. They'll mock me. I'd be living my life with people condemning me. I can't.

"Please." She said pleadingly.

In all of two years, all she ever did was understand me. She didn't complain when I won't answer her calls and texts for a week and then suddenly go back to her like nothing happened. She didn't complain when it took me 5 months before I could reciprocate her love. She didn't complain when I kissed a random stranger that one time to taunt her. She didn't leave me even when I hurt her. All she ever did was stay by my side and promise me forever. She never asked me for anything, she never demanded anything, she was always so understanding. The least I could do is face my fears for her, with her.

But..

Fear has a tight hold on me. Its claws gripping my soul harshly and tightly that not even a beautiful angel like her could free me. I'm terrified and don't have the guts to face my fears. I can't.

I slowly leaned away from her touch while shaking my head sadly. Tears were violently streaming down my face by now that even if my eyes were closed, they continued to pour out.

I heard her sigh loudly. I opened my eyes and saw her wiping at her eyes, but one tear escaped and cascaded down her cheek. It broke my heart to see her cry.

"I'm sorry." I apologized pathetically while sobbing.

She shook her head and smiled sadly.

"I'll see you tomorrow."

She stood up from where she sat and all I could do is cry and sob while shaking my head because I know by this point, there won't be a tomorrow for us.

"Camila." I called desperately and looked at her pleadingly. Begging for her not to leave, to not give up on me.

"Please, I love you." I said in a shaky voice. She can't leave me. Not now. I need her.

"I'll.. I'll see you around." She started to walk away and all I could do is watch.

I look like a pathetic mess. My face buried in my hands while tears continue to stream down my face and sobs rack my whole body.

I really have a way of ruining things, that even the most beautiful thing to walk into my life, I've managed to ruin. God, I hate myself.