windy day | jjk

t w e l v e

(Arin's POV)

Finally, it's 4:30pm. It's time to go home.

The school bell rang telling us it was finally our dismissal. The school gates were being opened and students were rushing around the hallway to either get to their lockers or to their homes.

I walked to my locker to put in my books I don't need and to pick up books I need to work on. After that I headed out the door.

I unfolded my turtle neck until it  completely covered my neck and put my coat on. "Yah! Arin-ssi!" I heard someone calling from behind me, then I saw Jungkook. "Oh, anneyong" I greeted. "Let's walk home together shall we?" He said. "Haha, okay. So is this a new everyday routine?" I asked him. "Sure, if you're okay with it." He said

"I think I'll be okay with it."

We walked home in silence, but even if it was silent we wouldn't really say it was 'awkward'. "Don't you feel cold?" Jungkook asked me trying to break the silence. "I'm alright, I have my coat anyways."

"Oh, okay." He said.

We walked in silence again but this time it was more awkward.

But what I did next made it worse.

"Uhm, Jungkook?" I asked, "Nae Arin? What is it?"

"What was that question for?" I asked

Pabo

"What question?" He asked me. Is he acting clueless or he already thinks we're too awkward. "This morning, you asked me if—"

"Oh yeah, that one" he said before I could finish my sentence. "I was just curious, don't overthink about it too much."

"Arasseo, that was pretty weird though. Never knew you would be interested to ask stuff like that." I said. "Haha, I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable. You can forget about that." He said uncomfortably.

I guess I can try forgetting about it.

We arrived at our apartment building and went into our apartments. "Anneyong Arin! See you tomorrow" he said while he was going in. "Anneyong!" I said

I dropped my bag down near the kitchen and brought out my books. I had two assignments due tomorrow and a test in two days. So I finished my homeworks first before deciding to study a little bit while eating dinner.

I fried chicken and cooked some rice. I made a sweet sauce for me to dip my chicken in and I set my table.

I studied for my test while eating my dinner, and then my phone began to ring. It was Kenzie

"Yuboseoyo" I greeted. "Anneyong Arin, guess what I did while we weren't together."

"What? What is it?" I all of a sudden got curious. "Pabo, I just told you to guess. I'll tell you anyway" we laughed. "Okay so? What is it?"

"I WAS ABLE TO TALK TO JUNGKOOK!" She said happily.

"Ah, jinja?" I said.

"Arin? Is that you? What's with the sudden change of tone.. are you well?" She asked me.

"What change of tone? I'm alright"

Yeah okay I'm not alright

Why do I feel jealous?

"Keep going, what did you guys talk about?" I faked a smile even if I know she doesn't see me. Maybe my smile will turn into a real smile and change my mood? Don't know, hope it works. "After we had lunch I saw him along the hallway." She said. "Okay go continue" I said still faking the smile hoping it would transition into a real one. "I was just able to introduce myself to him. He knows you and since I'm your best friend I think I deserve to be known by him too. Oh, and I was able to talk with Jimin as well. They're both really kind but Jimin has an aura of someone who's more serious."

"Ah jinja? I'm still not able to talk with Jimin enough but I know a few things about him since Jungkook tell me about him." I said. "Why'd you have to tell me this news anyways?" I asked.

"Arin-ssi," she started to stutter a little bit "aigo, I think I have a crush!"

What

"Kenzie?!" I said

Okay that's enough, I'm not denying I'm jealous anymore. I'm jealous

"Why Jungkook?!" I continued. "I don't know, I just feel flattered around him. By the way, could you help me with something?" She asked. "Nae, what is it?" I asked her.

"Jungkook" she replied

What

"Since you're close with him, I'm pretty sure you know a lot about him. Maybe tell me?" she continued. "I know it's weird, but I want to be his girlfriend."

"Kenzie?!" I exclaimed. "I don't know what to say."

"Ah, I'm sorry. It's alright I'll do it myself."

"ANI!" I said, "I could help you, I was just shocked." —and jealous

Is it just me or I find this very insensitive?

"Jinja? Aishhh, saranghae Arin-ssi!" She said. "Yeah yeah, now I have to drop the call. I'm studying." I said

"Alright. See you tomorrow" she put the phone down.

I wasn't really going to study anymore, I think at my state nothing I would read would go into my mind.

I shut my book and put it into my bag. I prepared what I needed for tomorrow and washed the dishes. I went into the shower to get to bed.

It was 8pm when I finally plopped down onto my queen sized bed. I decided to clear my thoughts for a while.

"Aigo Arin, why are you so deep in thought about this? You don't even like him." I said out loud. I was waiting for my mind to come up with a response to what I just said to myself. "You don't even like him." I repeated to myself

"You can't fall that easily, see what happened to Kenzie? They only talked and she's head over heels for him." I said to myself again.

I thought some more, "but what if you do like him?" I asked myself.

'I'm pretty sure I don't' I said in my mind. "Aigo, you're really a pabo Arin aren't you?" I said to myself again.

Is it weird that I'm doing this, no one is listening anyways right? The walls are thick enough. "If you end up liking him," I said, "deny," I paused and took a breath

"Deny and deny until you believe. You're not going to get hurt again" I said to myself.

I decided to shake off the thought. I plugged my phone into the charger.

"Arin, please don't remember this tomorrow."

I shut my eyes keeping that in mind. Yeah, I'll forget about it tomorrow anyways.