Wonder. (Matthew Espinosa fanfic)

No and goodbye

Riv p.o.v

A beep comes to my phone. It's from Matt ugh. he texted me only to say sorry. why can't he just come up to my face and do that. what a douche.

Right now I'm eating ice cream and watching family guy. the only things I do when in depressed. My phone starts to run like crazy. I answer it. "hey Riv can you come over?" Shawn says. "ya sure." I close the call. I don't really want to go over there because is don't want to see matt right now but maybe Shawn needs me. I put on my usual sweats and hoodie.

On my way there a car passes by. I saw brent inside with the other guys. the car stopped. the car door opened. "get in" they say. I hop in and next thing you know I'm next to nash.

We ride back to their house. Shawn isn't here int the car so he's probably there. approaching the house I see a light in the living room. They aren't rely on this late.

I get out of the car and check out he light. I see two figures. maybe one of those PDA couples. as I got closer and closer I recognized who they were. I was disgusted by the sight. I just stood there and started to sob. I never though this would happen. I started hearing the guys get out of the car. "Riv what's wro- SHIT" I heard Carter scream. I walked backwards slowly.

I could see Matt and Silvia doing stuff I don't want to describe. why. why does it have to be me. That little piece of shit.

I saw him and he saw me. we made eye contact. I shook my head. "I hate you" I whisper. I looked over at Brent. He looked like he was gonna to cry too. He probably really liked Silvia. Maybe even loved her. "brent" I mumble.

I don't know now. I hate this.

Matt p.o.v

We made eye contact. She started to sob. "get the fuck off me Silvia" I screamed. "what did I do wrong?" she asked making puppy dog eyes. "you kissed back and did this didn't you." I started to get mad. Why did I just enjoy what happen? I pushed Silvia off me and ran out the house. I felt a sudden pain in my face. I fell to the ground. I looked up. Brent punched me. "that what you get." he said furiously and kicked my side. he stomped off. I slowly got up. I walked over to riv who was beside Shawn crying. "I should've never picked you. I can never trust you again. and really with that whore. you're such a douche bag. I hate you." she said. She went closer to me and slapped really hard and kneed my ground. I fell to the ground wincing in pain. "that's what you fucking get you loser." she screamed. "screw you. I hate you. I don't think I can love you anymore." she hugged Shawn and left. I seriously fucked my life up.

Riv p.o.v

Fuck him. fuck her. I don't need him in my life. if he doesn't love me then he could've said that to my fucking face.

I ran next door to Michelle. I ringed the doorbell and she answered it. I started crying, crying a river of tears. "it's ok" she said rubbing circles on my back. I really love my best friend. she always there for me when I need her most.

Matt p.o.v

I just layed there on the grass. I tried getting up but it hurt. she hurt me real bad. after a few minutes I managed to get up.

I entered the house. I saw all the boys sitting on the couch. they all had looks on their faces. I sat beside Carter. He's my best friend. I hope he would understand my situation. "Fuck you dude. why why would you cheat on Riv with Brents girlfriend." he stood up. I messed up. now she hates me. why can't I just end my life. Without her it's over.
"Come on guys yup know I didn't have anuthing to do with this." I groaned Ina agony so they would at least have some sim patchy for me. "no." carter says. All the guys walk out non unison leaving me in pain. I really fucking screwed.

I fell asleep there on the couch and woke up to the sound of the guys whispering. I opened my eyes and groaned so they could acknowledge my awakening. I saw carter look straight at me but quickly turned away. none of the guys would talk to me during breakfast and when I would go to get some Juice all eyes were on me. unjust wish this madness would stop. I tried to make some conversation but jack or Taylor wild just talk over me like I wasn't there. I sometimes saw looks of sismpahy from carter or brent but no forgiveness.

*later in the day*

I stretch out on my bed. I check my phone on twitter. I lost 100k followers.... ugh. I check Riv's twitter. I miss her smile, her laugh, our convos,i miss our everything. I sigh.

I hear a knock on my door. a head pops up. it's Riv. "hey" she says. she comes in and sits beside me. "I came here to say that I don't think I can do this anymore. after what happened last night...." she paused. "I'm sorry I can't anymore. I just don't know if I feel the same way anymore." she stands up. I hold her hands. she looks down at me. I go down on my knees. "I'm sorry..." I start to sob. "I really love you. what I did was a mistake. I never should have done it. I love you Riv and please don't leave me. your my world, my everything. I can't live without you. with your smile your presence your personality. your everything a guy wants in a girl. I love you Riv. please just forgive me." I say sobbing. I look up at her. "I forgive you but we can't get back together I'm sorry." She chockes on her words. I stand up and kiss her for the last time. I'll miss her. she pushes me off. she shakes her head. "I'm leaving tomorrow." I say. "I know." with that she leaves.