Don't let me go

7:Breaking up

Taehyung POV
I look at my phone this is the third time jimin have called me and I'm not picking it up. Maybe I should.

'Yah! Where are you Tae?' Jimin shout when I pick up the phone. 'You know how worried we are! Don't tell me you are meeting with Ha Ri.'

'Sorry Jimin for not informing you. But I'm meeting with her. I'm on my way.'

'Seriously Tae! How can you meet her when she doesn't have any time for you? I always support you in every way. But this time honestly I can't support you anymore. I never tell you this but you've changed after Ha Ri entered in your life. And this change is in negative way.' I can feel his disappointment in his voice.
'I can get your point but I've to meet her. There is something that I've to know. I've to go now Jimin.'
'Okay take care. And listen to your heart.' Then he hang up the phone.
I was waiting in my car in front of Ha Ri's company. We are from different company, we meet in music show. At first Ha Ri was so serious about this relation but now she hardly contact with me. All the time she says she's busy. Today she have to answer my questions.
I knows everyone is angry with me but I've to make this matter solved. I don't want to live in dense.
Honestly I don't what I really want. Do I want to break up or want to give it a chance?
Few weeks ago I was clear what I want until I saw Eleanor. Everything became confusing after seeing her. I feel different around her that I never felt like this with Ha Ri though I was hardly with her.
Today I kissed Eleanor which I shouldn't do. In that moment I just couldn't control myself. I ignored her. But I really wanted to kiss her again. But this isn't right I know. I have to control myself.

Then I saw Ha Ri was coming towards my car wearing mask like me. She came inside my car.

'V! Sorry I'm late. You know practice.' She sighed.
'Hmm. Ha Ri I hope you know we are having comeback soon.'
'Yes I know. It's all over the internet. But why are you telling me this?' She was confused.
'Because I'm busy too. But still I have come here to meet you. I call you every fucking day. But you don't have time for to send a single text.' I was so frustrated. I've tried everything but she isn't serious about us.
'I've told you several times that I'm busy. I've to think about my career and future. And you know we can't tell everyone about us. So its risky to meet or call you.'
'Your future! Then what about us? I am the one who tried to save this relation. But I don't think this worth any of it.' I looked at her.
'Then what you want?'
'I think we should break up' I said coldly. 'If it's about your career your future then I don't think you should be in relationship.'
'What!' She cried out.
'Yes. I won't call you or disturb you anymore. You, focus on your career. And please get down from my car because it's too risky like you said.' I said emotionlessly.
'What are you talking about V! Why breakup? We can try something!'
'NO! I have enough tried. There is nothing left. NOW PLEASE GET DOWN FROM MY CAR. WILL YOU!' I yelled at her.

She get down from the car and I drove away.

'Where were you hyung?' The moment I entered the dorm Jungkook asked me 'You know how worried we were!'
'I'm sorry Jungkook-ah I was out for some work' without anymore word I went to my room.

'I broke up with her' I told jimin when I saw him in my room.
'You did the right thing Tae. You should've done this before. You deserve better than her. Someone who will love you.' Jimin said.

'Maybe' I sighed.

But I know I'm not ready for any kind of relationship after this.

Eleanor's POV

'You don't have to help me in cooking Haejin-ah. You must be tired' I was helping mom to make kimchi. Korean dishes are really hard to cook.Mom recently taught me some Korean dishes.
'You are also tired mom. Let me help you.'

'When will you start applying for university?' She was putting some spices in kimchi.
'Umm mom I was thinking about applying in NYU. I don't wanna study in Seoul.'

'So you want to go back to your dad again.' She stopped cooking and looked at me.

'No mom. I don't want to go back to him. You know it's my dream to study in NYU.'

'Okay. If this what you want then I have no objection.'
'But I'll apply in the next year. I want to study on my own earned money.'
'Why Haejin? I'm your mother if I don't help you to fulfill your dream then who will!'
'I know. But please mom. You've done a lot for me. I'm adult now. I want to do it.'
'Alright. But if you ever need me don't hesitate to ask me.' She kissed my forhead.

'Okay mom enough of talking. Let's eat. I'm starving.' I whined.

After dinner I was laying on my bed. That kiss was still replaying on my mind. Why I'm thinking about it. It was clear on Taehyung's face that it didn't mean anything. I should stop thinking about it.
But where did he go after practice? Did he have any girlfriend? But I never heard about BTS dating life. They never mention it.
I searched on internet about Taehyung's girlfriend. But there wasn't any exact news about it. All news were rumors. I saw one article that was mentioning about Taehyung and Ha Ri a girl from another kpop girl band are dating. But that newspaper didn't give any confirmation. I don't think that Taehyung guy can date. I mean he is weird why will a girl date a person like him. I don't know why I'm investigating about him. And weirdly I was feeling relief. What is happening to me?

I put my phone on the table and fell asleep.