BBSquad [One Shots]

Three Years{Ryan}

Dear Ryan,
I carved your name onto my headboard. It was late and I felt that there was something missing. It had taken some time, but I realized that it was you. But it's been three years without you and I thought I was doing fine.

I watch your streams from time to time. You sound happy. In every stream I've watched, you would take the time to call shoutouts, thank people who've donated, and give advice to anyone who needed it. You were always so giving.

Sometimes I wonder if you watch my videos. My channel's grown in those three years apart. I think I'm around four million subscribers right now. It's crazy, isn't it?

The more we grow as individuals, the farther we grow apart and I can't stand it but God, you seem so happy now. You have so many friends you've surrounded yourself with. They cherish you, support you, congratulate you.

I used to do that, all the damn time. I used to make you laugh, smile, and jump with joy. That's why I've always wondered why we drifted. You claimed we had to grow up first, which I never understood.

But we have. We've matured. We have our own homes, our own jobs.

So dear Ryan, here's a letter hoping for a future together.

My fingers hovered over the 'Send' button. As my hand began to shake, my finger pressed down and the message sent.

I waited, and waited, and kept waiting. And maybe it had been minutes or hours of staring at an empty screen with an empty heart, until you finally responded.

Three years have felt like a lifetime, and as I didn't want to admit it when we first parted, but I missed you every damn day. I'm more than willing to try again and spend a lifetime with you.

And it took three years, but I realized I had never lost you.

I've been having major Ohm feels because he's such a sweetheart and I've been watching his streams. Vote and comment

And as always I hope ye enjoyed(:)