BBSquad [One Shots]

I Love Him {Jonathan}

Do you ever just completely fall head over heels over someone? And you know he's nothing special, not to most people, but he's still just perfect.

I've fallen in love over a million times.

People say I'm delusional whenever I tell them that. They're right to. Growing up, I always told myself that genuine love is very rare and falling in love is a once-in-a-lifetime chance. But I still fell every time.

I remember the boy who had chased me around the playground in elementary school. I remember the boy who tried to hold my hand whenever he walked me to class in middle school. I remember the boy who I had argued with for thirty minutes in a debate in high school.

I fell for all of them or at least, that's how it felt like.

My friends say my heart is too big for me and that's my only excuse. When I'm happy, I am overjoyed. My feet will not keep still and I have to bounce around in my seat or jump in excitement. When I'm sad, I have to cry and when I cry, it doesn't stop. I could sit still for hours, waiting for the tears to stop falling as each and every sad moment I could recollect replayed over and over in my head. When I was afraid, I shook with a force that only added to my fear. My hands would move violently and my body would tremble as I would try to calm myself.

And when I love, I love with all of my heart. I love with everything that I was, everything that I am, and everything that I would ever be. Every emotion, every small fleeting feeling would have me on my feet. If I love and I am happy, I will feel as if the world was somehow perfect; as if war, famine, and everything evil had been vanquished. If I love and I am sad, my chest would physically hurt and I would stand to my feet with tears streaming down my face, screaming into a void about all the problems and feelings I was confronted with. If I love and I am afraid, I will hold on dearly to the ones I care about and nothing in my mind could separate me from them.

It had always been like that. I was always too sensitive. I cared too much. All those times, I had fallen in love were remnants of a greater whirlwind that came crashing into my life at random intervals.

And it was only until I met Jonathan that I realized I had no idea what love truly was. For it was because of him that I truly felt it.

When I fell in love with Jonathan, the world did not change. The sun wasn't brighter, the world wasn't happier. When he talked to me, I talked back instead of melting into a stuttering mess like I usually did.

This was because our love was true. This was not the same infatuation I felt with every boy that showed me the smallest bit of compassion. I mistook infatuation for love, but Jonathan showed me that love was growing together over time and promising to be loyal and to never stray from each other.

And I did fall head over heels for him. He was not special to most people, but he was still perfect. I fell for him harder than I ever thought was possible.

I love him and God, I would never stop loving him for the rest of my life.

This was super cheesy and corny and I regret writing this at one in the morning. Vote and comment

And as always I hope ye enjoyed(:)