Ethan's pov
I can't get Isabel out of my mind! No matter how hard I try. I even tried to get with a different girl. I ended up leaving before anything could happen. I just couldn't do that knowing I bought the condoms in front of Isabel. Why is it so hard for me to get over her?
I had a dream the other night. I was helping Isabel put up lights in her room and I kissed her. She didn't even stop me, but it wasn't really her. I mean I wish it was. I can't do that to Grayson and I defiantly can't do that to Isabel. She's happy and all I can do is think of ways to destroy that. She said she would always love me. She needs me as a friend.
What if I wanna be something more. I always have. The only thing I regret is not doing anything about my feelings and letting her and Grayson get together. I was looking out the window when I saw a star shoot by in the night sky.
"I wish I would've let her know how I felt," I said. I knew it wouldn't come true, but worth a shot right? I laid down on my bed and instantly fell asleep.
I woke up and Isabel was standing above me. She started to laugh. I felt the sun hit my face and practically blind me. I covered my eyes and sat up. I wiped my eyes a little and looked at her.
"Wake up sleepy head," she said smiling. I smiled at her and blinked a lot." Your going on tour in a couple days and I'm gonna miss you." She sat down next to me and laid her head in my lap. I played with her hair and got this weird feeling. Why is she laying on me?
"Hey iz," I asked and she sat up.
"Yeah babe," she asked. I was shocked. Did she just call me babe. Did she just say that I was about to go on tour. As she waited for me to say something while I tried to figure out what's going on.
"When did we start dating," I asked. She gave me a weird look.
"Oh.. I get it. It's a pop quiz. Alright well. When I moved to LA we met up and became friends again. You told me how you felt about me and took me on a date. Which was amazing," she said hugging me and kissing me on the cheek. I felt where she kissed me and started to smile." Then we started to date and have been happy ever since right."
"Spot on," I said grabbing her and flipping her over on the bed. I was on top of her and she giggled. I kissed her nose and she laughed."can we just lay here forever?"
"I wish but we can't. I have to go to the hospital today for more tests and stuff. Don't worry though the doctors says that my cancer is stable," she said. I'm now finding out she's very open with it.
(Skipping a couple of days)
While I was on tour Isabel was keeping me up with her condition. It got pretty bad and she ended up in the hospital almost to the point where I almost flew home to see her. A couple months later and I'm starting to get worried. She hasn't answered for a few days. Every time I get a text I immediately check to see if it's her. It was Kat.
Kat: I'm really sorry to be the one to tell you Ethan but Isabel passed away. We will send you a funeral date and time.. I'm really sorry..
I feel tears streaming down my cheeks. I get on the next plane to LA. I get home and play the mixtape I still have from finding it in her old house. Playing it while tears stream down my face. The next couple of days I try to stop tears from falling but they naturally fall. I get to the funeral and stand above her casket. I try to envision her alive in my arms. Kissing her nose and laughing with her.
I try to remember all the times we had together. This memory of her death soon overcoming those of happiness. Soon I forgive her for leaving me, but I still remember her every single day.
I wake up with tears on my face. Grayson's above me with his phone out.
"Ethan. I came in here to wake you up and you were crying in your sleep," he said. I wiped a tear off my face and laughed. Being happy it was fake. Maybe Isabel is better off with Grayson. I'm just glad that was a dream. I can finally get over her knowing we weren't meant to be.
