Lexa Croft - The New Tomb Raider

Chapter 6

Our lips touched so gently first. Her soft touch shot through my skin like a straight bullet and caused a tingling sensation inside my body and a certain hunger for more.
Her lips and tongue tasted like sweet wine and I realized I would never get enough.
Her touch was everywhere up my back, over my arms and down my sides.
Suddenly, she grabbed my waist and pulled me closer until I could feel every curve of hers pressing against my own body.
By then she was kissing me harder, more passionate with a certain need I've never known before.
I felt a rush of helplessness and vulnerability as she curled her tongue around mine and I couldn't help but sinking into her world of desire.
It was the kind of kiss shown in the typical romantic movies that would break any ice or metal. It was a new unknown sensation but yet it felt so good.

It was only when she broke our connection and placed her head on my lab to close her eyes and drift off to sleep that I realized she tore down my indestructible walls. It scared me and I knew I had to stop myself from falling as long as I was still able to.
The only way to protect myself was to ignore her from that moment on and it felt harder than it should have been.
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No matter what I was doing, I could always feel the weight of the secret, the true reason why I was here, pressing down on me. On the surface, I could manage to act normal and fool my surroundings, O and Ray included but it was hard and cost me a lot of energy and concentration. I couldn't risk someone catching me being off guard.

Most of the time, I was able to keep my secret and true intentions locked away but still sometimes it all came back to me. The memories of my mother never faded nor blurred around the edges. They were always clear. I remember every word she had ever said to me and I remember every pain she caused whenever she left. Anyway, I wanted to know why she did it, why she loved the adventure so much and prioritised it over me and why she never came back. That's why I decided to read through all her diaries she apparently sent "home" over the years to find out where she was, where the connection broke and to find out if she was still alive. It gnawed at me violently even if I tried to deny it, push it away and lock it up behind jars. It never stopped coming to the surface, I never stopped caring.

I looked up to the proof I found and let a weak smile take control of my lips.
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"Lexa, what are you doing up?" I recognised Raven's raspy voice as I was suddenly blinded by a light. "It's late."
"Nothing. I'm tired.Let's chat later." I said. "Aren't you tired too?"
"Here comes your 'I'm tired' excuse. That might work on Titus and Octavia's mum but it definitely doesn't work on me. Are you up because of Clarke or because of something else?"

I sighed. She knew me too well.
"Both."
"Well then we'll start with your blonde."
"She's not my blonde." I responded quickly. Raven shook her head in disbelief.
"I don't get you. I mean.. you kissed her, didn't you?"
"And?" I crossed my arms. What was she trying to say?
"My point is, she's damn hot."
"I know. I kissed her, remember?"
She sighed and rolled her eyes at me.
"Why not having some fun and see what happens. Octavia and me watched you since we arrived here without you noticing and we came to the thought you both might work very well."

I couldn't believe Raven was trying to hook me up with Clarke after she had been the one who couldn't wait to knock her out as soon as they surrounded us.
"Look, we haven't seen you that relaxed in a long time. You seem to smile more and maybe you could step down on your mission and concentrate a bit more on your.. emotions." She rubbed the back of her head as she rambled.

"Now you sound desperate Raven."
"I am desperate. I've seen you becoming so distant and harsh ever since Costia fooled you. You completely shut down your emotions and even stopped talking to Octavia and me about your dark mind. And believe me, I can see how much you're struggling. Little did you know we wouldn't notice that Lexa. We indeed notice that every day and now this.. Clarke could be the one chance for you to climb out of your dark hole."
I froze.
"I'm sorry but I can't help you." I thrusted past Raven, our shoulders collided and my body crashed into another.