Lexa Croft - The New Tomb Raider

Prologue

When you find this I failed being a good person and especially a good mother to a child that deserves nothing but pure love. When you find this I might not be here anymore.
I should of talked to you in person instead of writing in this diary that you'll eventually find.
Before I start, let me tell you that I met a million people, that I've been in million places but yet I couldn't go after my real destiny. I couldn't be a mother to you and I don't think I ever can. I don't think you remember me, my face or the sound of my voice and I know that it's the hardest thing to grow up without loving parents. You've been alone in this huge place with only some staff and a butler since you were born but I tried. I really tried.
I was a rebel in my early twenties. Your grandparents were great people, loving parents that had a dangerous job. They were archaeologists that went after everything that was linked to danger and me, well.. after my mother died I wanted to follow her footsteps. I wanted to know what happened to her, why she was so focused on her job instead being focused on me but my father, a strong man tried to keep me from my path but my heart never went silent. I never gave up searching for clues and hints my mother had left and at some point he realized that I was more like her than he wished I was. He wanted to protect me so he quit his job, only went on small expeditions and went to my school theater performances but that wasn't what I want. I wanted to go with him, be at his side and enjoy the freedom my mother loved so much.
And well.. I finally did. When I turned 14 my father took me with him to incredible and mysterious places that were barely discovered and ever since then I would be his partner until he was taken away from me. The day he disappeared and never returned was when I turned 16 and he sent me back to school. After I graduated I was determined to follow his footsteps as well and I went on expeditions on my own. Eventually I would find people I could trust and who I could count on whenever I was in danger.
I will tell you later about that. You'll have plenty to read anyway.
It was a hot summer day in Africa when I met your father. It wasn't quite a love story you find in movies, it was more a love that wasn't meant to be. Even though we fit perfectly to each other, we lived in rivalry. While I discovered places and risked my life for the good of humanity, your father was more obsessed with things I couldn't discover yet. He was a treasure hunter with a knack for getting over his head. He loved the adrenaline and the money he made.
I fell in love with him which was not quite natural for me but we soon decided striking different paths. While he got married and got a child as well, I returned home with the consequence of a thwarted love. I got pregnant with you. Don't get me wrong, I wanted you, I loved you and I stayed at home for you. But eventually I got unhappier with every year, with every month and every day because I missed the freedom I had. I missed my job, the adrenaline and the adventure so it was bound to happen that I left.
I came back a few times to see your face and to pull you in my arms. I even brought a lot of stuff I found during my adventures but with every year that passed and with every year you grew you started becoming distant, until you wouldn't even look at me anymore. It was dumb I know but I gave up. I understood you hated and even despised me so I thought I would do you a favor if I left for good and never come back.
I miss you every day and every night. My mind and thoughts wander back in time, back to you.
I love you Lexa. I always will.
Love, Lara.

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Hey guys!! This is the prologue of my new story. I will obviously update soon (other stories as well) and I hope you'll give it a read.
This story is not like every usual clexa story that starts with them meeting and continuing with both falling in love with each other etc - within 2 chapters. This is obviously a clexa story but with intrigues and secrets.
Hope you'll stay tuned.
Let me know what you think about this prologue.
Love,
Res