Diamond Life

Chapter 15

Lauren POV

My sisters are basically still missing. Diamond doesn't talk to me and Chris is hiding from me. I basically don't have anybody. It's my last year in school and I want to drop out but it makes no sense. I hate my life right about now . I've been in my house , not taking a shower nor brushing my teeth , eating , drinking nothing. My body is totally ready to cave in. I can hear my stomach growling but I'm ignoring it . I'm to depressed to get up and do anything for myself anymore. I can't sleep either. It's total disaster where I am.

*Night Time*

I sat in a corners by my window In my room . I reminiscence on the times i had with Diamond and my sisters. The arguments we'd always have. Dahm! I miss her so much to a time I started crying. And my sisters , I was suppose to be their role model , big sister , guardian , and everything but I abandon them. I cant even get a proper job so I went to stripping but I was told that it was the job I chosed to get to I have it so when I see men looking at in a certain way I am suppose to be youst to it because of the job I have. I don't want that job anymore but everyday frank comes by my house knocking and banging but I'm to scared to even look at him.
"Lauren"
"Lauren"
"Lau-Fucking-Ren"
I heard frank screaming my name. More tears came to my eyes because I was Scared. All that's running through my head was "stand up for yourself" "be who you are " "have up your guards so your ready to take any hit to will receive" but was I really ready. I already gotta baldly beaten half to my death so was I really ready? Could I even take on frank another time or should I run for the remaining of my life? I wasn't ready so I stayed in the corner hiding so I can save my life.
After couple minutes he went away. I got up and turned on the bathroom light. I stare at my reflection in the mirror and said why am I doing this to myself. I couldn't even smile because my face was ugly. I had scars and bruises and my face was swollen. My body was bruised up as well. I started crying because I had little sister to set an example for. I tried to stop crying but the fact my sisters are still missing and I'm fucked up right now because my ass was beaten and raped by a man who could almost be my father was frustrating me . I haven't gone to school and child care is going to start investigating my sister and I can't do that and I can't risk them being taken away from me and having their lives being terrorizes and buried up. I Can't ! I Won't !
I stripped all my clothes off my body and stood next to the tub. I glimpsed at my body and a waterfall came down my face. My body was becoming weak and I'm in pain. I slowly eased myself in the water and the pain grew while the cold water rushed to the bruises. I weeped and weeped but that all I could do. I finally got in the tub and dipped my head down closing my eyes and staying down there.
"Lauren I know you in here, come out hoe !"
"Bitch do make me look for you."
"Boom , boom, boom, " the door got bang on.
The curtain flew across and my head raced to the top but it was forcefully put back down.
My legs flew up and started swinging and splatting up the water.
*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* I screamed while water rushed to my mouth.

I rushed my head to the top and started breathing hard then opening my eyes to see it was a daydream!
2 seconds later I raced out the tub and to the toilet then throwing up. I kept throwing up. I was finally finished and I washed my face , mouth and got back in the tub. I dunked my head in the soaped my body. I got out and dried off my body .
I think because my stomach is empty I throw up so I'll eat.

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