Diamond Life

Chapter 16

Denise Swish ( Mother of Diamond and Damian )

🎤🎶 Its Been Five Months Since You Went Away
Left Without A Word And Nothing To Say

When I Was The One Who Gave You My heart and Soul
But It Wasnt Good Enough For You, No
So I Asked God

God Send Me An Angel From The Heavens Above
Send Me An Angel To Heal Broken heart
From bein' in Love Cause All I Do Is Cry
God Send Me An Angel
To Wipe The Tears From My Eyes

And I Know It Might Sound Crazy
But After All That I Still Loved You
You Wanna Come Back In My Life
But Now There is Something I have to do

🎼I have to tell the one that I once adored
'Cause my heart cant take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries
So God

God send me an angel from the Heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From bein' in love cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

🎻Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please to send you back to me
I couldnt eat, I couldnt sleep
You made me feel like I could not breathe. 🎤🎶

"Dear Diamond & Damian "

I know Its the wrong time to write you but I still would. I may seem like a bad parent but I had to do what I thought was right for both y'all and myself. I also had to put to an end the pain I was putting y'all through I went to get clean the day after you left to go by Lauren. Before that i was going off and on for 3 months now its 5 months and Im officially here. I knew you wouldn't come back so I took the opportunity to go. Just like you I ran away. I was being held captive and taking advantage of and it was so I did y'all also.
Diamond you and your brother mean the world to me and I would hate to see you fall. I don't want you to forgive me but I want you to know that no matter what your hard time doesn't create your future.
I quoted this song for you by Amanda Perez because I felt like this song it's just for you. Every time I think of you I cry because I made it so hard for you to even smile. The years I spent torturing your life also your brothers it was because of sorrow and depression and I thought loving another man would change that but it didn't. James is in jail because I filed charges against him stating he raped you and I and took advantage of the fact you were 11 and he made me a junkie. They were looking or you for gave up. Diamond I can relate to you so much because I was rape also by ..... "

Sincerely

Denis S.

*Rehabilitation Center *

I've been here 4 weeks now and I feel horrible. I cry every night to sleep thinking of my kids. I'm a bad mother . Yeah I am! And i'm wondering why she might hate me.
"Denise , do to wanna make a call!" The director asked
"No , I'm ok! Has my letter been sent!" I asked
"Yeah , it just did."
"Well that all. I'll be ok after that!" I said

"Denise , you cry every night, Can I ask why?" The director

"Do you have kids?" I asked her

"I certainly do. A boy and a girl. Jadesa and jayden!" She said

"I do to Diamond and Damian but mines hate me. For the years she'd live with me and a man that was married that I've met he tortured her life and me being a junket I helped!" I said

"Let me tell you something. Most kids had it harder in life and still do. I was raped from my grandfather and father for 8 year until I got pregnant and lost the baby and ran away .They did it to my sister but they locked her in a basement an gave her 10 children. Denise you will be out soon so from now until whenever try to make it right for you daughter to understand you was high on sorrow and depression. Don't hang it over you self and stress out. Keep it cool. Your to beautiful to be looking old." She said

I gave a little tears because I was raped by my father and almost drown by my mother. She couldnt kill me so she stripped me naked and put me to the side of the road at 4 and my grandparents found me. Well not my biological grandparents.

"Thank for sharing your stories with me Gloria."
"No problem!"

"Lock up " the guard screamed

Gloria waves bye to me and I laid down. I closed my eyes and the vision of diamond keeps coming to my head I started crying once again. It's breaks my heart to even know I have kids and can't see them just in dreams. Do they even look that way anymore? Do she care?

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