*CRAY'S P.O.V*
hayy nakooo!
di pa pala ako formally nakakapag-pakilala sa inyo.
well, ofcourse, nabigyan na kayo ng introduction about me ng napakagaling kong bestfriend diba? but, there's this one thing she didn't told you.
one thing that even she, didn't knew all along....
i'm Cray Anthony Santiago, childhood bestfriend ng napakagaling, napakabaliw at napakalokaret na si Nehia Marie Villafuente, my one and only bestfriend, and my one and only true love. since kinder years palang namin, magbestfriend na kami. she was just my crush at first, but soon, it developed into something i didn't imagine would happen. she turned out to be my first and only love. she's been the only one that owned my heart for the long years of my exsistence... HANGGANG NGAYON. ni isang wala pa akong naging girlfriend. miski isa. she's the only girl i love. ewan ko, mahal na mahal na mahal ko, pero ni minsan di ko inisip na magtapat sakanya about how i truly feel for her. 101% sure akong mahal ko siya. mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal (ayy! masyado bang paulit-ulit? HAHAHA! pasensya na, nagmamahal lang ako HAHA!) pero kasi natatakot ako. natatakot ako sa rejection. i could see guys who ends up too broken the moment na nireject sila ng babaeng mahal na mahal nila. i'm scared to feel that, pero may isa pa'kong mas kinatatkot. I'M AFRAID OF LOSING HER. natatakot ako na dumating yung araw na dahil lang sa pagpapaka-makasarili ko at umamin ako sakanya on how i truly feel for her, eh mawala siya sa'kin, mawala in the sense na mabalewala na yung friendship namin for how many years and ang pinakamasakit ay ang layuan niya ako. ang duwag ko diba? di ko kayang ipaglaban at ipagtapat sakanya yung nararamdaman ko, well, i'm sorry, tao lang ako, tao na nagmamahal, and i don't want that day to come to us. maybe, may tiny chance na mangyari yung hinihiling ko and pinapangarap ko na maging kami, but that's just a TINY CHANCE. and ayokong isugal ung long years friendship namin para lang dun sa gusto kong mangyari. ayokong mawala ang pagkakaibigan namin and ayokong mawala siya. i can't risk her. i can't afford to lose her. kaya kahit masakit na hanggang BESTFRIEND lang ako para sakanya, as long as alam kong mahal niya ako, okay na ako dun. mapagtatyagaan ko na 'yun. kahit BESTFRIEND lang ako para sakanya. wag lang siyang mawala. i just don't want to lose her. i can't stand the fact pag nawal siya sa'kin.
hayyy! andarama diba?
wala eh, nagmamahal kasi eh...
people change when it comes to love.
how i wish it's just as easy as counting yung pag-amin mo ng totoong feelings mo para sa taong mahal na mahal na mahal mo. kaso kasi, hindi eh... it's a 50/50 chance, there's a possibility that the feeling between the two of you is mutual or not, and when it is, well, swerte mo, matutupad yung pinakahihiling mo to own and have your BESTFRIEND'S HEART, but if not, you'll feel like you died. you'll risk your friendship and even the one that you wished you will ALWAYS HAVE---- YOUR BESTFRIEND. kaya kahit gustong gustong umamin sakanya, wag nalang, titiis nalang ako sa pagiging magbestfriend namin. pagkakasyahin ko ang sarili ko dun sa tingin niya na 'yun sa'kin, i won't ask for more, as long as alam kong nasa'kin parin siya, hindi man sa paraang gusto at hinihiling ko, well atleast, as her bestfriend.
*insert Cray's ringtone here*
ayy! peste!
nagdadrama yung tao eh
tsss!
sino ba 'tong istorbo na 'to!?
tsss! -.-
i was about to answer the call when it ended.
psh!
teka nga, matawagan nga si Nehia, baka mamaya di pa nakaka-uwi yun nakoooo! mamamatay ako ng wala sa oras. ayaw ba naman kasi magpahatid. tigas talaga ng ulo. kung di lang talaga ako takot dun sa babaitang yun nakooo! tinalian ko na bibig nun para lang di ako dakdakan ng dakdakan.
