*CRAY'S P.O.V*
after i took Mimi on teir home dumiretso agad akong bahay and went exactly sa bar counter ng taksil kong ama
i already took 2 shots of Jack Daniel nang biglang nag-ring yung phone ko
at first i doubt kung sasagutin ko ba o hindi
i wanna be alone for a while...
ayoko munang humarap sa ibang tao.
wala akong sa mood para makipag-utuan
hindi pa kaya ng sarili kong magpa-uto at ngumiti-ngiti o tumawa-tawa ngayon para lang itago ang sakit at lungkot na nararamdaman ko ngayon.
i kept on staring at my phone na patuloy parin sa pagriring...
until it suddenly stopped.
nakahinga ako ng maluwag and poured another drink in my shot glass...
i drank it all and again?
my phone started ringing...
SIGH!
i took a deep breath before i took the phone and looked at the caller ID
*CALL CONVO W/ ANNA*
CRAY: Hello? *lifeless tone*
ANNA: Hi! ahmm... asa'n ka Cray? *mejo ganado*
C: Bahay *still a lifeless tone*
A: aa... busy ka ba? *in a hopeful tone*
C: Hmmm... hindi naman masyado.... just trying to get myself all drunk up *making himself sound okay, yet already breaking inside*
A: HA?! *gulat na gulat*
C: *laughed a bit then tsaka nanaman napatulala sa empty glass na hawak niya and suddenly a tear fell down his face*
A: Bakit?! ano nanamang nangyari?! *nag-aalalang tanong niya*
C: masakit *has a soun of a cracky voice na halatang nagpipigil na umiyak*
A: HA?! teka nga lang!! pupuntahan kita jan ngayon na! don't you dare touch and drink another shot again! i'm telling you Cray! don't you dare!! *panic niyang threaten*
*CALL ENDED*
after the conversation we had i poured another shot of Jack Daniels then napatulala ako and took my phone again and looked at our picture.
ME AND NEHIA
our last picture together
how can a moment like that end up like this easily
when could be the day para maulit yung mga memories namin ni Nehia together?
kelan kaya ako ulit sasaya at tatawa na kasama siya
yung kagaya dati, yung tipong tatawa ako, at alam ko sa sarili ko na masaya talaga ako, and not like this?
pilit lang na inaaliw ang sarili sa kabila ng mga sakit at lungkot na nararanasan ko.
na matapos kong ngumiti ay agad na mawawala at ako mismo sa sarili ko ang magtatanong kung kaya ko pa ba ang sakit na pilit na nagpaparamdam sa'kin
hayyyyy!
i wanna be happy again....
I WANNA BE WITH HER AGAIN...
WITH THE ONLY GIRL I LOVE SO MUCH
