•Changed• |Grayson Dolan| Book 2 of My Bullies...

Twenty Five

Erin's POV:

"Asher be quiet please you're giving me a migraine" I groaned to Asher.

"I just want to know how come we're at your dads house? You know you haven't seen him in some time little Erin werin" Asher sung in a high pitched voice.

"Listen you light weight! I'm here to save your ass okay?" I sighed getting out of the car and then going to his side to help him out.

I helped him over to the door  repeatedly shushing him. "Asher please just stop okay, for me please. I'm doing this for you just be quiet"

"Why?"

"Why be quiet?"

"No why help me after I let you down"

I sighed. "Are you going to remember this tomorrow?"

"Probably." He shrugged.

"Then ask me then" I said "now come on I have to sneak us both in"

He nodded as I unlocked the basement window and slid in. He followed with my help of course. My basement bedroom was set up the same as when I left. I looked to my bed and saw it was neatly made.

"Come on Ash get to bed you need sleep" I sighed pushing under my covers. 

"At least lay with me" He rolled his eyes "If you're going to treat me like a baby treat me like your baby"

"If you didn't drink like an idiot i wouldn't treat you like a baby" i chucked at him as he laid in my bad like a seven year old ready for his bed time story. I loved every detail of this boy longer than i admitted i did, which is ridiculous because i barley know who i am so how can i know who he is well enough to love him? But the thing is is that i know the answer to that. It's because he knows me. He knows me better than anyone I've ever met. Better than my father ever did. Better than my brother. Even better than my baby sister who takes up my whole heart. And even better than my new found mom who in many ways is me and consumes who i have become. 

"Asher"

"Mhm"

"I want to hate you, like really fucking want to, but i love you"

"Can I tell you a secret Erin?"

"Mhm"

"I love you. Please don't want to hate me. And um i lied i'm not going to remember this tomorrow."

"Okay good so i can do this"

 I got under the covers. Now lying next to him i took his hand in mine and held it tightly. I pressed my cold goose bump ridden body to his warm skin.  His eyes looked over my face taking in every inch of me. I was so grateful that he wouldn't remember this after he fell asleep. He doesn't mean what he's saying. I want him to, badly. But no one is capable of loving me. You can't love the wild card. I take it back, i don't want him to love me. It would be a mistake. I'm a mistake. No i'm not a mistake i just made a big one.

And finally as i stopped thinking and just felt the  moment i could see that he was now falling asleep. In my arms. In My bed. In my house. In which i grew up. 

I brushed my hands through his hair. I did this until he fell asleep. I pulled away from him and got out of the bed. Removing all evidence that this had happened besides my own. A moment that was only for me to hold on to. 

I passed my room for a few moment before creeping upstairs and into the kitchen. I opened the door where i knew my dad always kept the snacks that he wanted to eat and keep away from us. I pushed past all the gross shit and pulled out the Oreos . Tossing them on the table and grabbing the milk I tip toed to the dishwasher and got a cup. Then i finally sat down and opened up the Oreos.

 I tried feeding the pit that was in my stomach since we  pulled up. My comfort food wasn't comforting anymore. Yeah still tasty but not comforting. 

After finishing a whole row i decided that that was enough. I put everything back exactly where it was before i got there. Once again leaving no evidence of my visit. I got in my car and i went back to the party. I picked up my drunk cousins and even drunker brother and drove them all back to my uncles. Luckily Uncle Ethan had fallen asleep on the coach and Aunt Tyler promised not to  tell him.  Like a baby sitter i tucked each of them and then got in my own bed. 

Now i was laying alone. Bitter and alone. All i wanted to do was go home. Where ever that is.

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Hey. Long time no see.... sorry guys. I had to take a step away from writing but i'm back due to my overflow of inspiration and lust for writing again. I missed writing and missed you guys. This is a short but sweet part. Anyway,  Love yah, bye :P