Playing Games

Chapter 37

SAVANNAH POV

Warning: Got some sexiness up in here ;)

I feel like an incredibly heavy weight has been lifted off my chest. Now that Olivia and I have settled things with Logan and no longer have to worry about him, I can finally return to my life before this all happened.

I feel like I can finally breathe again.

After Olivia and I leave Logan's hospital room, we walk side by side and don't say anything to each other. Out of my peripheral, I see Olivia smirking. I wasn't expecting her to do what she did, but it doesn't bother me. Hell, Logan should've been tortured for way longer after all of the things he's done.

"God, that felt so...amazing!" Olivia exclaims, and her face is exuberant.

I can tell that she was ready to let him go, and that she's experiencing the same feeling of relief that I am.

But that still doesn't change the fact that I wasted months of my life on him, and I can't get them back.

All of my apologizing probably won't even mean anything to Brendan or Alex or Xiu. They probably won't want to hear it from me, and I don't blame them.

"Yeah, I just wish I did that sooner." I admit, and she sighs.

"Hey, at least you did it now. We both stood up for ourselves because we got tired of just doing whatever Logan wants like we're his dogs or something."

"But now I'm afraid."

"Of...?" Olivia trails off, and I look at her again.

I'm afraid of the next relationship that I'll be in. Now that Logan has put me through something that I never thought would happen to me, now I'll probably think that all of the men that are attracted to me will have the same goal.

To hurt me.

I don't want to be played with again. I don't want to be hurt. I don't want my expectations to be so high and end up getting disappointed.

I don't want any of that.

"Look, right now you need to be with yourself. Obviously you don't want another relationship after this, and neither do I. But when you do start dating again, that fear is understandable."

"I know that all guys aren't abusive like Logan is, but I'm scared that when I start dating someone else that they'll turn into that person." I admit, and more tears form in my eyes.

It's like when Alex found out that her ex only used her for sex, and I remember how devastated she was because she thought he was the one. She didn't date again until her senior year, which is when she met Rian and fell completely head over heels for him.

I guess a traumatic dating experience can lead you to the right one.

Guilt instantly twists my stomach into a knot because Brendan instantly comes into my head. He's going to want to be with me now that Logan isn't in the way, but it isn't that simple.

I wish it was.

I wish I could just be with Brendan and not have all of this emotional baggage. He truly does like me, and I like him too.