White Valar (A Legolas FanFic)

Chapter Three - Gods Only Know What's Wrong

'Gandalf!' I called, 'Where are you?' I stormed around Rivendell, not caring who I woke up because it was a bit dark.

I stormed to the hall of fire and found no one. Well, I found Lindir and a few of his friends.

'Lindir, do you know where Gandalf is?' I called.

'Isn't he with your dwarves?' He replied.

'He better be, you wouldn't want them loose. Do you know where he is?' I asked again.

'Oh, sorry.' He apologised. 'He should be out on one of the balconies over there.' He gestured to the left.

'Thanks.' I said. 'How is everything around here?' I asked out of curiosity. I was a bit off topic, but I just didn't want to seem impolite.

'Well everything is fine with me. But...' He trailed off.

'But what?'

'We have been spotting lots more orcs around, unusual isn't it? Seeming that Gandalf defeated the Necromancer of Dol Gul-Dûr.'

'Ok. Thanks.' I said while rushing off to find the wizard. I barged in on a meeting with three elves. They stopped immediately and jerked their heads towards me.

'Sorry.' I muttered, turning away.

I tried two others, one was empty and another had two elves talking and holding hands. I felt so bad for interrupting.

The next one I tried was finally the right one.

'Gandalf!' I said sharply, not caring who else was in the room. 'I need to talk to you, now.' I asked sternly. He looked at me and mentally rolled his eyes and excused himself.

'Sorry for the interruption.' I said to Elrond, who wasn't looking too pleased with me.

Once I had got Gandalf out side I full on dragged him up to the observatory. Elrond shouldn't mind, we're friends.

'What is it?' He questioned as I forced him to sit on a stool.

'Is it possible for Valar to lose their power?' I asked frantically.

'I do not know, it could be possible.' He said slowly with a blank expression. 'Why do you ask such a question?' He said raising his bushy eyebrows.

'Look, I know this might sound crazy, even though I am crazy. Just don't think I am crazier than usual.' I said crossing my arms. 'Nessa. She came to me in my sleep, it's the first time any of the Valar have talked to me in about ten millennia.'

'Oh, that's great.' He smiled.

'No, no it's not! She thinks I am a servant of Him!' I shouted slamming my hands on the table, giving Gandalf a bit of a fright.

Stop it, stop it. Go away! I told the angry person. Get out! I put my hands to my head and started pulling my hair.

'Is she back?' Gandalf asked.

'She is making me angry, I don't want to be angry with you.' I could feel her claws trying to pull me down. The only reason I was afraid, was that I couldn't see any of the claws. I felt like I was being dragged down somewhere. My breathing got faster and I was shaking. Panic Attack was back. She was trying to get me. I started tearing and wanted to run and jump off the observatory balcony and screaming.

I couldn't handle it anymore. I did what I always did.

I sprinted out the door to an isolated place and just screamed. I kicked and punched a few walls and then I felt better.

I came back into the Observatory and Gandalf was still sitting on his stool. I looked at my fists. They were covered in blood and were bruised.

'Better?' He asked.

'Yes.' I took a deep breath. I am safe, I am calm, nothing can get me. I repeated to myself and smiled.

'So, where was I?' I felt much happier, very bubbly and bouncy. I bobbed up and down waiting for Gandalf's answer. He knows about my... War, if that's what you call it. It's a thing he just has to put up with, but he does a really good job at dealing with me. Maybe he is the only reason I haven't been driven over the edge.

'Valar talking to you and thinking you are a servant of Him, wasn't it the reason you wanted to talk to me.'

'Right.' I smiled and huffed at the same time, rubbing my fists. 'So basically Nessa comes up and she asks for my help. Gods knows why she came to me, why can't she just ask someone of actual importance. So she tells me, Sauron is back and is trying to steal the powers from the Valar, one by one. He'll put the power into the jewels and then use that power to destroy all of Middle Earth, War of the Jewels repeat.' I finished my rant. Gandalf raised one of his eyebrows.

'What else do you know?'

'Nessa said I had a power, I don't have any power, for goodness sake, does she even know that I sacrificed it for Vána's trees?'

'You do have power. Just not very much.' Gandalf walked over to me and sat down next to me. 'You just have to find the right way to use it.' He put his arm around me for comfort. I guess he believes me.

'I also told her that I could borrow powers, then that was the end of it, she thought I wasn't on her side. I know that it's not my power to borrow the power of others. It's something I managed to develop myself.'

'You just don't remember much before the trees, don't you,' he said quietly.

'No, I don't.'

'It's ok.'

'Thank you.' I sniffed. Stress tears, the worst. 'What are we going to do?'

'I suggest we find a way to destroy Sauron again, but quickly.'

'There may come a day when the Gods will fall. But not this day, or the next. We'll protect them and hold off Sauron until we find a way to destroy him. Because it's the right thing to do.' I crossed my legs and sat back on the bench.

'I'm sorry I brought you into this, I haven't even asked for your help.' I started to tear up a bit, but I bit down and held them back. 'Will you help?'

'Of course, don't be silly. It's my job to help save Middle Earth, and your helping me do it.' He smiled. I instantly felt better and gave a small laugh.

'Now let's get you something to eat.'

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After dinner, Gandalf and I told Elrond what was happening, he still had that confused but stern look on his face as he always did.

He said that he actually didn't know what exactly to do but he gave us some advice.

'Look at all of the history books and scrolls, keep communicating with the Valar.' And he then rushed away.

I didn't tell him about the part where the Valar thought that I was a servant of Evil. It may have ruined everything.

All I knew was that I could no longer trust anyone with my thoughts or problems.

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