That Depressed Girl

Chapter 20

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As I looked at the TV tears left my cheeks.

"If you are out there, watching this now. Please call me. My number is ----- thank you."

What?

This can't be real.

"Jessie, is that-"

"My mom."

He handed me his phone and I just looked at it.

Should I?

After all of this time she's been gone.

Leaving him with, me.

And leaving me with him, my father.

Why?

What could've possibly make her hate me, us, so much that she just left?

Did I do something?

What happened?

So many questions were swarming my mind. I had no idea she could've been alive. And that "hallucination", was it fake? Wasn't real?
How could she just have left?

"I'm not forcing you, but I think you should do it." Adrian said while grabbing my hand softly.

"But, what if-"

"What if? Your mother is alive! Maybe this is a new chance for you? For everything to be okay!" He exclaimed.

True, something good could happen out of this. And I'm sure that she had a good explanation for leaving. Right?

I mean, you can't just leave your child. Alone. Right?

I didn't even realize that I was once again crying.

Ugh

Why do I have to be so emotional?

I probably wouldn't be if I was normal.

If I had a normal life.

A normal family.

Adrian looked at my sympathetically and I froze while looking at the door.

"Mom?" I said while blinking, and feeling a couple of tears fall.

"Jessie, I- I missed you so much." She said walking to me slowly, while crying.

"Yo- you left." I breathed out.

"I had to...." she began.

"Why? Why did you have to leave? Why did you have to leave? Why did I have to hurt everyday? Why couldn't you take me with you? Why did you just leave me with him? Alone?!" I raised my voice, crying, hurting, like always.

"You have to understand-"

"Understand? Oh, I understand, you think I deserve this? You think that I should be hurting?"

"No! Of course not, I can't put into words how much I regret, and hate myself for leaving." She said.

Adrian was now sitting down, watching the scene. He looked at me, nodding for me to keep talking.

"My whole life, I thought you were dead."

"Shouldn't it be a good thing that I'm not?"

"Yes, but. Why?"

"I- I w" she started, but sighed, as she, even couldn't get the words out.

She left. And yet can't tell me why?

I looked at adrian for comfort and some sort of help.

He nodded his head a no. To say he wouldn't help me?

"You need to deal with this on your own. I have no idea what happened, and I- I love you. But I can't help when i don't know what even happened."

"You- love, you love me?" I gushed.

"Of course I do."

"I love you too."

"Jessie, I have thought on how I was going to tell you, I practiced it in my" she laughed "I practiced it in my mirror a hundred times. Yet I can't even say it."

"Just say it-"

"I was pregnant." She said quickly.

"You- you were pregnant?" I said.

"I had to go somewhere, safe. Where I was happy, and the baby could be healthy."

"By healthy you mean that you didn't want her to be raped and abused too?" I ranted.

I looked at her, my mother. Then down at my hands. My wrists where I have scars, this could've stopped. I could've been happy.

"I'm sorry." She whispered looking down.

"No." I began.

"Don't act live the victim here. You got away. You were safe. You, were happy, without me. Did you even care?" I said as the tears continued to spill.

By now, Adrian was next to me. Holding my hand.

"Of course I cared-" she began.

"Then why did you leave?" I yelled.

"I think you should go." Adrian told my mom.

"I agree." I whispered.

She looked at me, as if she could explain further. But at this point I needed a break. I wanted her to get out of my sight. How could someone just leave like that?

"You have my number." She stated before walking out.

I Burst out again in tears and wrapped my arms around Adrian's torso.

He picked me up as he whispered soothing things in my ear, and he sat down with me in his lap.

I moved my head to his chest as I continued to cry my eyes out.

He wrapped the hospital sheet around us and laid down.

As I laid on top of him crying he rubbed my back.

I soon drifted off on Adrian and his tear soaked shirt.

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A/N: hey guys! Huge plot twist! Sorry I haven't been very active but here's a short chapter! Make sure to vote and comment what you think will happen next! Bye love you!