Where Words Are Silenced

My heart will go on!

I don't know why but my hands are shaking.

I tried to tie my heart down and board up all the windows

I know, I should take cover and hide inside these four walls but its too late now

I can remember a time when I was so afraid, when even the shadows wouldn't follow me

It feels like every cell in my body is moving so fast that my veins are blurry, the constant heart beat inside my ears is like listening to a spastic drum line, it feels like there's bees in my ears, it's like a broken white noise machine playing all of the sounds at once.

I am avoiding eye contact not because I am not listening to what you are saying, but because I am listening to the sound of my own voice hoping that through your ears, you can't hear that its two octaves too high and on the verge of breaking because my palms are sweating and I somehow forgot to speak with anything behind my words other than insecurity.

Somehow it feels like I am moving faster than the 60 seconds they have allowed in a minute all the while am playing catch up on the stopwatch

Anxiety is silent. You do not notice a change on the outside but you are so stressed that you can't even manage simple tasks.

Anxiety is like having two other people living in your head, one that is logical and the other is paraniod and psycho

Most people don't know how much strength it takes to pull yourself out of an anxiety attack, so if you have ever done it, I am proud of you! 

If you experience any type of anxiety, just know that you are not alone!