Crash and Burn (Eminem Love Story)

Chapter 9

*This is a trigger warning, if you have experienced any type of domestic abuse or rape, please only read the parts written in mostly print.*
December 14, 2001
Lolita found herself sitting in her apartment with him on her mind and a drink in her hand. He has broken his promise and left her for Kim. For a while, she couldn't even talk to him. The sight of him made her sick, then he'd leave for tour and he'd send flowers and gifts to her every time. After a few months of it, she found herself missing him and missing his touch but she was never the one to mess with a married man. He got arrested last year and then he filed for divorce and then he got back with her. Lolita's hands shook and her lips trembled as she thought of the ways she could've made his life better if they wouldn't have broken up. Her finger tapped the slide of the glass and she sat it down before standing up. She heard a knock on the door and sighed. Recently she had been intentionally shutting everybody out, Jenny was the only one that could handle it. As she looked through the peephole she could see Jenny standing there with Kalila.
"Lolita, open this motherfucking door. " Jenny said and she sighed opening it.
"Why are you dodging my calls?" She asked and Kalila sat down on Lo's couch and turned on the TV.
"I'm not. I unplugged my house phone." She said and sat down on the couch with Kalila. She watched as Jenny plugged it in and she checked her voicemails.
Call from: Mathers, Marshall at 7:30PM on December 7, 2001
Lo, pick up the phone. I'm coming back on the 15th and I want to see you. I want to bring Hailie over- do you mind? Anyways I miss you and I need to see you.
Call from: Mathers, Marshall at 6:13AM on December 8, 2001
Lolita. I know it's like six there and you probably aren't awake yet. I love you, I need to hear you. That's really why I keep calling my love, I really miss you and need to hear your voice.
Call from: Mathers, Marshall at 12:13 AM on December 13, 2001
Lo, it's been like two weeks since I heard your voice talking back to me. I need to hear you please baby.
Call from: Roberts, Jenny at 12:15 PM on December 13, 2001
Ho, where has you been. The kiddo wants to see you-
*skips*
Call from: Mathers, Marshall at 1:30PM on December 14, 2001
Lolita, I come back tomorrow at 12. I'm coming straight to see you. I don't know why you're dodging my calls but I'm sorry for what I did.
"Lolita, call him." Just as Jenny was saying that the phone began to ring.
Call from Mathers, Marshall.
Lolita stood up again and walked to the phone picking it up.
"Hello?" She asked and heard him breathing.
"Lo-fucking-lita, where have you been?" He asked and she sighed.
"Marshall, my phone was unplugged. Where are you?" She asked.
"I'm at the airport." He said and she nodded, she heard knock at the door and sighed.
"What time is your flight, Marshall?"
"In about an hour." He said and she opened the door. Standing there with a black beanie on, Marshall's hands were clammy. Her heartbeat faster and she felt a smile on her face for the first time in weeks. In his heart, he felt a stronger thumping and knew she was what he wanted but she wouldn't take him until him and Kim divorced. As they embraced, he wished he could gently kiss her up and down her body love her like nobody else did. He could imagine feeling up and down on every curve, every stretch mark. For now all he could do was hug her. He took in her vanilla scent and he could smell her conditioner flowing through her hair. She could smell his cologne on his neck and felt her heart being wrapped in comfort. He kissed her cheek and pulled away. They looked at each other and every emotion was in their eyes.
"Lo, who is it?" Jenny asked still sitting on the couch. Lolita found that she couldn't even speak. Marshall put his hand on her back and she moved inside as he closed the door. They moved into the living room and Jenny looked up along with Kalila.
"Hi Marshall." She said a wave of confusion on her face.
"Hey Jenny and Kal." He said and looked at Lolita.
"Hi Uncle." Kal said and walked over to him giving him a hug. Jenny stood up and sighed.
"We're gonna leave, Lo, keep your phone plugged." She said and then they left. Marshall sighed and sat down.
"C-C-Can I get you something to drink? Are you hungry?"
"Yeah, can I get a coke?" He asked and sat down awkwardly. She walked to the fridge and grabbed one before coming over and sitting on the opposite side.
"Lo, I'm not untouchable."
"You're married." She said and he frowned.
"She's my estranged wife and it didn't stop us before." He said and Lo looked at him confused.
"Marshall, what the fuck are you talking about?"
"You haven't been watching the news like you usually do, huh?" He asked and she nodded.
"This apartment depresses me when you aren't here, I feel like I can't even touch you." She said and he shook his head. He felt tears rushing to his eyes and didn't even try to conceal them.
"I went to tour earlier this year as well and that's during the period of time where I didn't see you for like two months. So I came back home and I went to the kitchen and Kim was there. She told me when I was on tour that she was pregnant and the timing seemed off but then again it was possible. So um..." As he spoke, he struggled on with the story, Lolita inched closer and he kept talking.
"So she was in the kitchen and she was already trying to start an argument. She hit me and we got to the door and she opened it and was yelling and talking about how I'm not shit and I'm a horrible dad-"
"That's bullshit."
"I know, Lo. She was just swinging on me and hitting my chest and shit. Then she said she wants a divorce and the baby isn't mine and she's been fucking with this dude while I was gone and he got her pregnant. I got tested, I'm clean. I can't believe how much that shit hurt, Lo. I called you everyday just to hear your voicemail. This is Lolita, if this is a bill collector I have nothing due and if this is Marshall, I love you dude. Leave your number and name at the beep." He laughed and she looked him in the eyes.
"Marshall." She said her voice shaking.
"Yes?" He asked and she stood up.
"Kiss me." She said and he nodded. She sat on his lap and placed her hands on his head before  he brought his lips to hers. When they pulled apart they couldn't stop looking at each other.
Marshall could feel everything he bottled up for her in his body and he breathed. For the first time in a while that's all he wanted to do. She kissed his cheek and grinned.
"Marshall, I really miss how we used to be. When we were together, you were-"
"I am."
"You are my best friend and I miss having you whenever I want in all ways that I want. I miss you cooking dinner with me and having Hailie and Alaina over. I miss movie nights when Kim would disappear and the girls wanted their mom. I miss when you were like my superman, when you saved me from Don."
"I'm not the same Marshall that you had before. I want to give you everything I never had."
"I want to give you everything in general." She said and he embraced her again.
"I still feel bad for everything that happened. You would've never gotten with Don if I wouldn't have left you again."
"You saved me from him and I'll always love you the most for that." She kissed him and he nodded.
"I shouldn't have had to save you and I'm sorry for everything."
*This is a trigger warning, if you have experienced any type of domestic abuse or rape, please only read the parts written in mostly print.*
July 2, 2000
Don and Lolita had been together for almost a year and a half. During every fight, he would hit her. She could feel something different about today.
"I don't understand why you always have to be around him. He's not your best friend he's your ex, Lita."
"Donovan, he's been in my life since I was in high school. I know everything about him. Why should I get rid of him for you? You don't want to marry me or have kids with me. You hit me in front of my baby cousin. You're rude to me all the time and I stay because I think I love you. You say you love me."
"And what you don't believe me? You having my baby anyways so I don't see why what I want matters."
"Who's to say that my baby is yours, Don? You so worried about me and Marshall, huh? You say it and then you hit me and promise to never to it again. What am I still doing here?" She questioned and walked to the closet.
"What are you doing, Lita?" Don questioned and she pulled her suit case out.
"I'm leaving."
"Where?"
"Anywhere away from you!"
"Bitch, you think you gon leave me?"
"Yes, Donovan!" Lo screamed and when she turned around to get the clothes out she felt him grabbing her hair. He threw her on the ground and she screamed.
"You having my baby and you trying to leave me, Bitch!" She could feel his fist hitting her face and she felt the hot tears running down her face.
"Don, sto-" his fist crashed on her cheek and she tasted blood running out her mouth.
"Fuck you, Bitch." He said and she squirmed away.
"Don, no!" She screamed and crawled towards the bathroom. She felt him drag her back and then heard a zipper unzip. She looked up and he grabbed her hair.
"This is for all the times you fucking picked him over me!" Don screamed and she yelped.
"Stop this!" She begged and he punched her before gripping her hair tighter and he started peeing on her head. She could feel it stinging and she tried to run away but he grabbed her by the hair again. She collapsed and felt the tears dripping down her face.
"Go clean up, Lita. You're a mess." He said kicking her in the stomach once before pushing her into the bathroom door. She rushed in and closed the door behind her. She pulled out her second phone from behind the toilet and sank down to the floor. She turned it on and it buzzed in her hands and Marshall's name was on her screen.
Marshall: You okay.
Lo: Help me
She took pictures of her wounds and then she put the phone back and turned on the shower. She took down her braids and hopped in the shower. She lathered her hair with shampoo and then heard the bathroom door open. She closed her eyes tight and then felt a gush of wind. She opened her eyes and Don was in front of her. He was still fully clothed and he pushed her into the back of the shower. She whined and he grabbed her arm.
"Lita, listen to me baby."
"No!" She screamed and he pushed her out of the shower. She fell on her back first and she scrambled to get back up. He pulled off his belt and started beating her with the buckle. With every hit she could feel her arms getting weaker and her legs slipping. She could feel blood dripping from everywhere and as he hit her again she collapsed. She placed her face on the carpet and moved her fingertips on the carpet. She felt tears falling hard from her face and then she felt him pick her up she felt her bed and then felt him moving around her. She closed her eyes and went limp. She focused her eyes on a lamp she brought when she moved in to this place with him. It was a Chinese dragon and it brought the place together. She could feel movement and after a few minutes he laid down next to her. Two minutes went by and then she heard the doorbell. Outside stood Marshall, he held an unloaded gun and was dressed in all black. His hands were shaking and his heart was racing. He finally heard some movement and then the door opened.
"Marshall man, how nice of you to drop b-" Marshall hit him in the face with the gun and started punching him.
Upstairs, Lo was still looking at the lamp. She could see the little imperfections in the paint and then she was able to move again. She tried to stand up but her legs gave up. She rolled into a ball and rolled to the door and out towards the stairs. Her vision was fading in and out but she could see a man in black hitting Don's passed out body. The man looked up and rushed up to her.
"Lo." Her vision focused and she cried harder.
"Oh my god, you're bleeding." He pulled out his phone, dialed 911 and then picked her up. He laid her down on a couch in the guest room  and talked to the operator. She felt her body cover with goosebumps and heard Marshall pacing.
"I need to get her stuff and she's naked, she's still got shampoo in her hair man."
"Yes, can I do that? Thank you." Marshall walked into their bedroom and threw everything in the suitcase. He grabbed the lamp and wrapped it in a towel before packing it in. He brought it down to the car and came back up. He sat down on the couch with Lolita and she just cried and cried.
"Mr. Mathers?" A cop said coming upstairs. Marshall talked to the cops as Lo looked on and then the EMTs came up. They grabbed Lo and placed some clothes on her before taking her down.
Present 
As Lolita looked at Marshall, she just felt grateful.
"Marshall, you saved me. After that, you took me in. I stayed with you and the girls and Kim for a while. Them scars have healed, he didn't take away my ability to do anything. I lost my baby but I gained something else which is a family. I can't pick up your calls when you're gone because I still think he's gonna check my messages. I'm not completely healed but I'm getting there and I think that I need you." He wrapped her in his arms and grinned.
"I love you so much." He said and kissed her.
"Marshall, can I show you?" In reference to all of her physical scars, he nodded and they walked to her room.
She took off her shirt and pants and looked at him. His hands scanned over the scar right below her breast from Don kicked her. On her back, she had scars from the belt buckle. He pushed her hair to the side and there was a scar from when he was punching her. She could feel Marshall tense up as he got down towards her legs and could see all the scars there. When it first happened it was all blood and bruises now it's just scars. He put his face on her stomach and could she could feel his tears dropping down her leg.
"I want to have your first baby, I want to be your first and last everything. I want to give you the world, baby." He said and she nodded. Dropping down to his face, she kissed him and she wrapped her arms around him.
"I'll always wait for you, baby." Lo said and he kissed her slowly before picking her up. They laid on the bed and he looked at her.
"How do you feel?" He questioned and she grabbed his hand.
"I feel...alive now." She said.
"Why did you shut us all out?"
"I didn't want to give you guys my memories. I didn't think anybody cared anymore." She said and a tear dropped down.
"I love you more than anybody will, I care." He said and she nodded.
"I love you too, my love." She said and he wiped her tears.
Hey guys, Eminemandme39 here. I hope you guys understood/learned the chapter. Down below I have provided a hotline and a website that primarily US people can call or visit if they need advice or to get out of an abusive relationship.
1-800-799-SAFE (7233), or 1-800-787-3224 (TTY).
http://www.loveisrespect.org
Have a good safe night and I'll be back with a brand new chapter in a few days. I love you guys!