The new boy

I promise

As gary exited the stage, he had a sense of feeling lost within him. He'd always known he who he was and who he wanted to be. The one thing he was certain about was he loved Robbie and he's regretting them splitting up every single day.

Arriving back at his hotel he still had the desire to go out and look for Robbie, he knew he was only an hour or so away. Taking his drenched with sweat top off he just fell backwards on his double bed and put his hands over his face. He didn't know what to do. He didn't know how to function now knowing he's in town

He went into the shower room after arriving back at his hotel room but instantly came back out 5 minutes later when he heard Robbies name mentioned and seen a guy he recognised at the door

"Hi...hello" Gary burst out of the shower room still In just his unbuttoned trousers "Gary..."

"Robbies manager right?" Gary completely avoided James and went straight to shake Davids hand "sorry for the attire I was going in the shower but heard your voice" Gary explained, he felt a sicking feeling appear in his stomach as he smelt a familiar smell and he heard someone walking up the corridor getting closer to his room "David I said it doesn't matter he won't answer..."

Fuck it's him it's actually him what am I going to do? I haven't even got a shirt on!

"Shit" we both say in unison as we see each other again for the first time in about 10 years. They called it off in their earlish twenties so since Gary is 34 now it's roughly 10 years since he last saw the man who stole his heart and never returned it.

"R..Robbie" Gary stuttered out unable to take his eyes off him noticing something is going on instantly. Robbie looked different, eyes sunken into his face, smile lines no longer there, skin is cracked, looks unbelievably shattered and his hands are trembling almost like he needs a fix?

"I heard you were in town but I'll leave you alone it's fine"

"No" Gary feared grabbing Robbies arm stopping him from walking away "no" he said a bit more softly "I was going to come and find you, please tell me you aren't using drugs?" Gary almost pleaded looking at what he knows as the new Robbie Williams not the Boy he fell in love with, he knew he was using drugs but for his own peace of mind he needed Robbie to tell him he wasn't

"It's the only way gaz, I can still call you that right? It's the only way to block everything out, you, the memories, the laughter the sheer fuckin joy we had it's the only way" Robbie honestly said biting his lip to stop him self from crying "can we ever get that back" Robbie basically whispered

"I'll even be okay being friends just mates but I need you Gary and I'm so sorry for everything that's happened I really am! I need help and if I don't get it now I'll end up dead" Robbies words cut through Gary like a knife, he never realised how bad Robbie had got until now. He's standing before him physically shaking because he needs a fix "you wanna be mates"

"Really from all of that, mates is all you got"

"Well I'm not ready to accept what you've become so yeah that's all I took from it"

"What I've become? What the fuck is that meant to mean?!"

David watched Robbie change from shy and contained to a full of anger man who could batter someone, maybe Gary was that someone considering what he's just said

"I didn't mean it like that..."

"No you did! You think I've become something horrible, how the fuck can you think that?! I come here after everything that has happened putting my heart out there again for the first time again and you say 'what you've become' I shouldn't of come here I'm such a fuckin idiot" Robbie rambled now pacing the corridor and the raised voices caused some hotel stayers to come out their rooms instantly becoming shocked at the fact it was Gary Barlow and Robbie Williams having some form of a conversation "okay shows over, you two in here NOW!" David barked getting everyone back in their rooms and ushered Gary and Robbie into Gary's hotel room

"We DO NOT want you two in the corridor arguing there could be press around, think before you lose it at least" he calmly stated as Robbie placed his forehead against the wall and his hands clenching infuriated at what Gary thought and said and the fact he needed a fix "is...is he okay"

"No James no he's not because he needs a fix don't you Robbie" Gary felt anger rising within him that Robbie is that addicted to whatever he takes that he's physically shaking needing more "you don't get to judge you don't get to fuckin do that" Robbie shouted hitting the wall with his first, it was that or hit gary. He would never forgive himself if he hit Gary.

"Oh okay you're so paying for that no way is that coming out of my money" Gary dryly said referring to the now damaged wall "sorry, I'll pay for it" robbie sighed "why are you here robbie? Why now it's been a decade what's so important so meaningful that you've come here"

"I miss you and when I heard you were in the same city I had to come and find you but you don't look like you feel the same and also can you please get a shirt on and button your trousers it's highly distracting!"

"Shit yeah sorry" Gary grabbed a vest of the sofa throwing it on and buttoned his jeans back up tightening his belt and turned back to Robbie then realised David and James was still in the room "maybe we should go out" Gary suddenly said "you look like you need a chat and well you've spent your night finding me after performing at Wembley so it's the least I could do..."

"You know where I was performing" Robbie smiled slightly "some shit on the radio and I heard your name" Gary shrugged trying to not show emotion or any form of feeling "right" Robbie nodded. They just looked at each other, both feeling the same but only one showing their feelings. There was a look in each other's eyes they knew they wouldn't stay as friends if they talked again "before we do anything you must promise me and I mean it Robbie you must promise you'll go and get help with this drug addiction, go rehab speak to a therapist do something just get help. Then we can talk about everything. Just please promise me that"

"He's never quit drugs in his life you'll make no difference" David retorted making Robbies head bow in shame "I promised when I first met you I'd always be there didn't I? If you need help I will get you help just you have to work with me" Gary ignored Davids comment and stepped closer to Robbie lifting the younger mans chin up by his two fingers "promise me" he whispered and robbie could see the fear and tears in Gary's eyes. The emotional pain he's going through right now is too intense and here's gary after everything offering to help him

"I promise"