dear diary, » kang daniel

3:19AM, 01122015

dear diary,

mr ahn called a few
student leaders to
work together to plan
for an upcoming school
event. i was chosen, as
well as daniel. i wanted
to scream at that point
of time. we gathered in
front of mr ahn and i
was standing beside him
and my heart couldn't stop
aching. i could smell
his scent. i couldn't
help but to miss his
touches. my mind
just instantly thought
of our memories together.

once, in a school trip,
we went to a place
with hella lot of cats and
me being scared of cats,
were freaking out. i
couldn't eat in peace.
daniel seated infront
of me gathered all the
cats to distract them.
and the way he treated
and play with the cats
were very cute like wow
i remember having
butterflies in stomach
seeing him playing
with the cats.

and there was once, we
were at the playground,
having a little getaway
from home. there were
children playing and he
joined in as well. this
small kid were trying to
slide down and he helped
him and god, daniel really
takes a good care of
kids and play with
them. why is he so
attractive???????
thinking back on all
of these made me
realised that there
were more than 1000
reasons why i fell
in love with him.

and when i cried,
he sat beside me and
tried to console me,
despite him being late
for his practice.

all of these just flashed
through my mind and
it makes my heart aches
so much. especially when
joon asked daniel about
sera. when i overheard
their conversation,
turns out daniel got
himself a new girlfriend
huh? well........

i guess it's not going to be me
who listens to his voice at night,
it's not me who is going to
wear his hoodies and shirts.
it's not me going to his house
and perhaps staying overnight.
it's not me holding him.
it's not me whom he says
' i love you' to. it's not me who
is holding his hands while
walking down the streets.

it's not going to me, anymore.
fuck it

a/n: i'm going to regret writing this because i'm writing down my life lol :!!""""""))))