dear diary, » kang daniel

12:06AM, 01012017

i was overwhelmed in my emotions. was i disappointed the fact that he's not daniel?

"hey, are you okay?" he bend down to meet my eye level. his hands found his way to mine, holding them tightly.

i was not going to lie, i was not okay. i felt so empty inside. before i realised it, i was already crying in jinyoung's arms.

what killed me the most was the fact that i remembered everything that i wanted to forget. and now, it seemed like nothing was going to change. i remembered every single memories with daniel.

because the first thing i did after the accident, when i found myself on this hospital bed, was to dig out my belongings in my bag. little did i know the bag contained my diary. and little did i know it contained the memories that i've been dying to erase.

"do you remember who's daniel?" upon hearing jinyoung's question, i cried even harder. jinyoung pulled me up on my feet and hugged me for the next 5 minutes.

when i finally calmed down, he pulled me away and cupped my face with his hands, making me look at him in the eyes.

"hey, it's not your fault for going through your diary. please don't blame yourself. you deserve to be happy, you deserve everything in the world. i'll help you to move on okay babe? i've already waited months for you, and i'm more than willing to wait for many more months to come, if that's what it takes for you to finally open up your heart for me. please give me a chance to show my love for you. trust me."

it was hard to give in because he may not be what i perceived him to be. maybe this was all a lie, maybe he was merely taking advantage of me.

but his voice was calm and gentle. he had tears in his eyes. i felt his sincerity. i felt protected being in his arms.

maybe he will be the one, who will erase the pain away.
maybe i shouldn't be too scared to open up my heart to others.
and i certainly shouldn't treat my past mistakes as a hindrance to my better future, a happier me.

a/n: finally an update but omg this made me so soft for baejin 😩😩