black blood

eighteen

after dance class, jimin managed to get yoongis phone number.

YOONGI

JIMIN

are you still at school?

yea, why?

i need to talk to you.

will you meet me at the
bleachers?

yea sure

I'll be there in ten minutes
im a little occupied

boy or girl, name.

Jesus what are you my
mother

boy, jae.

damn a three timer?

boi prolly questioning

idk why I'm still texting
you man

see you in 10

alright

jimin waited patiently for yoongi at the bleachers, admiring the scenery has he did so.

yoongi took a little longer than ten minutes, but he came.

..no pun intended.

he took his regular spot next to jimin on the bleachers, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it.

"so what'd you want to talk about?" yoongi asks, breathing in and removing the cigarette from his mouth. he breathes out a puff of smoke.

"what you said earlier. how is everything jins fault?" he asks. he holds out his hand, which yoongi understands immediately. he hands him his lighter, and jimin lights his own cigarrete.

"ah, freshman year. he was a real asshole, jimin. he told me so many horrible things and made me feel like shit," he says, running a hand through his hair.

"what do you mean?" jimin asks.

yoongi inhaled deeply, and then he explained.

"I dont know, he just hated me so much. like I never did anything to him, but he felt like it was his job to make me feel like shit. at first I looked up to him and I wanted to be as good as him. he figured that out, though. he started off just telling me i wouldn't ever be as good as him, but then he started telling me I wasn't going to be good enough for anyone. I mean I already thought everyone secretly hated me and that I had nobody to confide in, but when he told me that just really made me believe it. and it was so fucking terrible because of the disorder I.. had. but when i started writing lyrics he told me they were shit. that's why I stopped. then I tried killing myself, and he told me i should try again because I shouldn't be here. anyway then i changed my image and everyone started noticing me and thats when I got into being a fuckboy and now I got way more bitches than him. people don't hate me because I try to expose them. so I'm better than him, and im fine with that," he explains. he didnt look at jimin the entire time.

he couldn't bare to.

and jimin realised he could strongly relate.

so he made a guess.

"dependent personality disorder? like you need approval on everyday decisions and you move on from one relationship to another, and you avoid adult responsibilities and you want people to do it for you? you're oversensitive to people judging you, which is why jin saying those things hurt you so bad," he says. yoongi nods.

"do you avoid caring for yourself or disagreeing with people so they dont suddenly hate you? or do you hate starting projects because you think you aren't good enough?" jimin asks. yoongi chews on his bottom lip.

"yea.. how'd you know?" he asks.

"i have that disorder, yoongi," he says softly.

"oh," was all yoongi could muster up. jimin found it quite nice somebody could relate.

(before yall complain abt this, i actually have this disorder so before you yell at me and claim im romanticising/glamourizing it or claiming I'm wrong, get ya facts rite.

this is a serious thing and it can do some real mental damage.)

suddenly yoongi got a phone call, and he answered it immediately.

"I gotta go, jimin. um, you can come over tomorrow and we can talk about it if you want. I'll see you tomorrow," he says after he ends the call. he sets his cigarette, and then he leaves.

jimin thought for a second.

he hadnt told anyone besides taehyung about that.

JIMIN

thanks for telling me any
that, yoongi.

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y'all what do u think of ne like fr what kina person do I seem to you

also normally male makeup artists annoy me so much but i really like manny mua??? hes really fun to watch and makes a lot of good points abt society n stuff and it really confuses me that I like him so much bc I normally dont like muas in general

idk man

also warning its abt to get EXTRA spicy like next chapter or smth but there's angst too so prepare yaselves