Die For You (Andy Biersack Love Story) (COMPLETED) {1} [EDITING]

Chapter 35: I'm Screaming Out

Chapter 35: I'm Screaming Out

ANDY'S POV

All I have been doing these past 2 months is sitting at the hospital. I would sleep in Harley's room and go see Brandon a few times a day and then come right back to Harley. I didn't know when the last time I would see them alive would be so I took every chance I got. I hadn't been eating much. I eat once a week from the hospital cafeteria. Sometimes its not that much, like an apple or something. I had gone 3 weeks without food and I planned to go longer but the guys forced food down my throat. I just mope around this hospital from room to room. I get to hold Brandon once a week and hes been getting better which makes me happy but Harley's the same, still in a coma but the outside is healing. The bruises, cuts and scratches are healing and shes getting off her casts in a month. Her nose is fully healed as well.

I was bawling once again when I heard the door open. I looked and saw Jinxx.

"Look man, you need to go home, get some good rest in a comfortable bed, eat something, please. You can't spend every minute of everyday here!"

"I'm not going home, I'm not leaving Harley's side." I pouted.

"ANDY-"

"NO JINXX! I'm staying here!"

"Fine fine" He said with a sigh and walked out. Soon I heard the door open and all 5 guys walked in plus Harley's dad. Before I knew it Harley's dad was carrying me by my arms, Ashley by my legs, Jinxx holding my mouth shut and CC supporting my body. Jake had sprinted outside and soon I was thrown in the car,

"NO I NEED TO STAY!" I was yelling the whole time. 4 of the guys and Harley's dad held me down while Jinxx drove. They threw me in my house, took away my keys and phone and locked the door from the outside. I pounded on the door for the longest time until I finnaly gave up.

"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST WAKE UP HARLEY!" I yelled, throwing my shoe which shattered  a vase. I crawled over to the vase sobbing and started to pick up the pieces. As I was picking them up, a piece jabbed into my hand.

"Owwwww" I said looking at the puncture hole and then stared at the piece of glass. I exaimned every sharp edge of it and found the sharpest.

"Now I get you Harley" I said with a smile and brought the shard closer to my arm. Without thinking about it I slid it across my arm, letting it dance. Blood flowing.

"I love you Harley" I said making another cut. "Brandon" Another. "Jake, Ashley, Jinxx, CC" One for each. "Mom, dad, Tom" 3 more added to my arms. "BVB Army, haters, Jon" I said, listing all the important people in my life and making a cut for each.

Suddenly I realized what I was doing.

"AHHH" I yelled, throwing the shard across the room and running to the bathroom. I washed off my arm and wrapped it up. I then fell to the floor, holding my knees close to my chest, rocking, sobbing and shaking.

"I-I'm a h-hypocrite. W-What the fuck is wrong with me! W-what the fuck did I fucking do." I ended up crying myself to sleep.

"ANDY! ANDY!" I woke up to see Jinxx waking me awake.

"M-Mhmm?"

"WHAT THE HELL HAPPEND!" He said, pointing to the ground where there was the shattered vase and blood stains. Then he gestured to my wrapped up arm and the bloody sink. Thats when I remembered what had happend last night. I just hung my head, letting tears fall. "Oh my God Andy, you didn't." I just slowly nodded. "W-Why?"

"H-Harley, I just want her to wake up! I want to hold her in my arms, hear her voice, kiss her lips, look into her eyes, something! I just want her to show signs of life besides a heart beat and breathing."