I'd been texting Jungkook for about an hour when my mom announced her arrival home.
"Hey kid. What ya doing." My mom said carrying two bags of groceries into the kitchen and starting to put them away.
"Nothing much. Just texting this kid from school."
I had turned on music in favor of Vampire diaries so I could pay more attention to Jungkook. He was really fun to talk to. I felt like he was also genuinely interested in getting to know me which rarely happens ever.
"Really? Is he your friend?" I could tell she was trying to pry without being rude. In the past I had trouble simply being around anyone other than my mom. Because I was so sick when I was little I was homeschooled until they started me on my new diet.
I remember kids from middle school looking at me in the lunch room sitting all alone, drinking from a thermos. Some kids would try to talk to me and I just wouldn't respond. Instead I started at the ground and hoped they would go away.
It got easier, but sometimes I still get anxious in conversations with people who weren't my mom or my doctor.
But after Jungkook persisted in talking to me I feel like I started to loosen up. His eyes captivating every word he said and making those words important to respond to. Even when I was texting him.
"yeah. He is." I stated. I could feel my moms smile as I said it. It hadn't been just hard on me over the years, it had been hard for her too.
The constant worry about wether I would wake up the next day when she rocked me to sleep after crying for hours on end.
Working her ass off to pay for my medical tests to try and find out what was wrong with me. Trying to find a sitter when one after the other felt too stressed after trying to care for me after all I did was sleep and cry.
Sticking me on a computer and letting it teach me to read, write, and do math. While she went to work a double shift at nearest convenience store.
The first word I learned was sleep she told me once. Because I would rather sleep than eat. I would still rather sleep than anything, but I also didn't want to put even more stress on my mom. She's my best friend.
"You should invite him over sometime. I'd like to meet him." I felt anxious at those words. Having someone in our house? The thought made me uncomfortable, even if it was Jungkook.
I just didn't know him all that well yet.
