Suicide Prevention

Chapter 20.5: Kimber

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Kimber's POV

Throughout the week I made sure to not let Mike touch me in any shape or form. I jus din't trust him yet even though I already let him finger me. As a matter of fact I was really begginng to regret that on the surface, but it felt so good and his body..

Stop!!!! So I made it my new goal to make myself not like him any more, which is harder than it sounds when he is on my mind everyday.

The week was good. the day after the whole incident with Devin and his crew I went back to school happier than ever and they were confused. I guess they thought I would be sad. Ha! Played them. I was just a smiling away.

And I knew it was becasue of Mike. And what happened that day, but that's over now and I am fully focused on making my friendhsip with Katie work now. No more Mike and me just Katie and I. With 0 Mike. And zero Devin and his band of followers.

When Katie asked me to go to the mall with her, I was skeptical at first but then I said yes.

 I mean what else was I going to do? Sit around the house. I grabbed 20 bucks from my shallow savings and headed out the door. The early October weather hit me hard and made me smile. The day was so perfect-the sun was shinning with not a cloud in the sky.

Today is going to be a good day. Hm. What is Mike doing right now?

Stop!!!!!! Just stop thinking about him and his sexy eyes and mysterious black hair. You don't even know anything about him and you shouldn't care because even if he wasn't using you for sex he wa still white and you were still Mexican. I could never work. Just think about anything but how good it felt when his finger...

Or how good his lips felt pressed against mine. I moaned to myself and bit my lips. I wanted him to kiss me again and make me moan and take me. I wanted it! I needed it! I was so addicted to his touch and the feel of his thing pressed on me. And how it feels when he moves his body into mine. Just thinking about it sent electric sparks through my body.

 I could feel my face flush as I thought about how it would feel if he was inside me. I was a virgin so I didn't know where to start, but I guessed the it would tickle my stomach and make my legs shake. I wondered how if felt? Where did you feel it at? I wanted to find out the answers to these questions with him inside of me. I wanted him...I lo--

Oh my gosh this is becoming ridiulous! How is it possible for him to be the only thing I ever think about?

This is crazy! I needed something to distract my mind from how sexy his lips...

Oh my God! '

I'm addicted to him and everything about him His smell, eyes, touch, voice, sexy hair, his warmth, his profanity...He curses way to much...I am going to need to chage that.

Oh my gosh listen to yourself. You can't go one minute without thinking about him. One second...one moment.

Why did he have to save me?

I mean I could have been dead right now-with my dad. No! Just stop thinking period.

I just focused on walking down the busy street. The mall was about two miles from my house, so I just walked it should take about thirty mins to get their which is enough time. Katie told me to meet her at noon, so I had about an hour.

I really need a cell phone.

When I got there I walked around for a few mins then went to the food court and saw Katie talking to some boy. he had his back turned.

"Kimber!" She yelled when she saw me then she flagged me over to her.

I qucikly walked over to her and the boy turned around. I heard myself gasp. "Mike!" I excalimed. "What on Earth are you doing here?" Then I looked around him and saw a pretty little girl Bradon and Marshall.

Mike smiled. "We can to get some Chinese. Wanna join?"

"I'll pass. Come on Katie."

"But-" She was pouting. "I want to hang with them. They're nice."

All of a sudden the little girl starting jumping up and down pointing at me and screaming. "Is this her? Is this her? Mike she is soooo pretty!!!!! Oh my God! Is this the girl you love????"

I almost fainted right there. Did she just say love? I looked up and saw Mike's face flushed a shade of cherry red.