Suicide Prevention

Sneak Peak of 2nd Book

Well know that we all know about the relationsship between Holland and Marshall, I wanted to put a sneak of the first chapter of the second book out. The second book is an intermission between Kimber and Mike books which will resume after "Suicide Driven", which is the second book. Here you are...

Holland's Point of View

Having a deadly disease never kept me from trying to live life as best that I could. Although I have this flaw, I still try to keep my head held high and not pity myself to much. I learned from my brother that life is what you make it.

"Holland are you even paying fucking attention to me? You need to hear what the hell I am saying!" Mike yelled as we drove down that street on the middle of the night and at a very high speed!

My brother is like the person that I look up to. He is so strong and brave and I want to be just like him. He had always been able to stand up to my parents who are just so mean for no reason. Well not my mom, but especially my dad. He was always yelling about something or another.

I knew that he didn't like me. I always knew since I was young because every time i used to come around him he would get all mad. I used to cry about it, but Mike told me that I needed to stop letting him have control of me, and I stopped crying a long time ago.

At this moment Mike and I were sneaking out of the house so he would not have to go and visit Harvard, which was pretty funny. Dad was going to be super pissed!

I on the other hand was super exited. I was finally to meet the two boys that my brother could not stop talking about. I wonder if they are cute. Yummy. I always wanted to date, but Mike as not having that. He wanted me to be a virgin until I die! Ugh not me. I wanted to be like Serena my favorite show Gossip Girl, and she was very sexually active!!

I loved her and Blair and thought Nate was just as sexy as any man could be and I would surely like to...

"Holland! What could you possibly be fucking thinking about!" Mike yelled.

Oops. I looked over to him and smiled. "I'm just exited about meeting your two best friends. I wonder what they are like."

I noticed Mike's hands grip harder on the steering wheel. "Maybe this isn't a good idea."

I laughed. "Can you just stop with the overprotection. I well not like any of your friends. Now just drive so I can get to a comfortable place to lie down!"

"Yeah you better say that. I don't want to have to lock you up."

"Bye Mike. You're dismissed."

He shut up and the rest of the ride was in silence. I was sooo exited that i could barely keep my composure. I was finally going to be around some testosterone other than Mike, but i'm so not gonna tell him that. He would kill me.

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Within ten minutes we were on the other side of the tracks and parked in front of a small home. It was about the size of my room. But it looked homey. I was so exited, but before i bounded out the house Mike double checked my medicine and complained about my skirt. It wasn't even that short!!

He looked at his phone before we got out the car. In all seriousness I was scared to be in that neighborhood, but I knew I was safe with Mike because he was always on these side of the tracks.

"Don't fucking make me regret this Holland. And pull that dammed short down shit!" Mike demanded a we walked to the door.

Ugh. He was such a party pooper. Maybe he needed to get laid by that girl he was telling me about. I hope I meet her and that she is pretty. Ugh. I can't stand an ugly person_she had to be Serena appropriate.

Like me.

Within seconds a boy was at the door for us. I couldn't really see his face, but he looked muscular on the dark. I might be finally looking at some eyes candy to look at finally! We quickly entered the home and were led to a small buy cosy looking bedroom.

*The Next Morning*

"Holland wake up," Mike whispered loudly into my ear. "Breakfast time!"

Not already! It felt like I just went to sleep. What the hell time was it? Gosh I hated the morning times. "One more second."

"No!" Mike demanded then I felt an arm snake around my waist and lift me from the floor. But I was so comfortabale. "I have your medicine out and your toothbrush out as well. Now go clean up you look horrid."

I finally open my eyes to see Mike and Brandon looking at me with amused exspressions. Ugh. Boys! I stood up and grabbed my things. "Where is the restroom?"

"First door as soon as you walk out my room." Brandon explained.

I smiled. "Thanks."

The mroning went by so perfect. Nothing could have made it better. We ate breakfast at Bradon's then we drove over to some boy named Marshall's house. I was really excited to finally meet him and I hoped he was just as nice as Brandon. I decided to wear some kneww lenth shorts and a black tank today so that Mike won't have a heart attack.

before we even left Brandon's house he asked me a million questions about how I was feeling. I mean jeesh he astced like I had seisures every hour on the hour. Can he take a chill pill?

We sat in the car and waited for Marshall to come out. I was playing angry birds to try and pass the time so I didn't see him walk out the door, but i felt him when he got into the car. He sat right next to me and for a moment I was afaid to look up. As soon as he got into the car my entire body heated up and i could feel my hands tingling and I haven't even seen his face.

When I looked up I could feel it when my heart skipped a beat. He was so sexy! "Hey!" he said in the most deep and sexy voice I have ever heard! I was liertally screaming in my head. Why was I feeling that way about someone I dind not even know? "I'm Marshall."