Was it always you? ~ H.G

Chapter 22

Nash's POV

Today's the day. Gee has to choose an outfit for her brother to wear at his own funeral and look through his bedroom, her dead brother's bedroom and she has to snoop through it.

"Hey Gee? You okay?" I asked. What the fuck? That's such a stupid question! Of course she's not okay! "I guess i'm as okay as i'll ever be..." Gee said with a low voice almost in tears. I sat up and put my hand on her shoulder then told her we had to get up and get ready.

"Do you think it would be okay to wear one of his hoodies today?" She asked me looking down as she fiddled with her fingers, "Of course. He always let you before." I explained trying to cheer her up. She went and got his pastel colored tie die hoodie he would wear a lot of the time and slipped it on. "Gee you look gorgeous and I bet he's watching you telling everyone with him how proud he is to have such a stunning baby sister." I said slightly cringing but it made her smile and that's all I wanted to do. "Oh i have to go get something!" She said as she ran out of Taylor's room. Gee came back in with the pink bandanna that Taylor got her for her birthday not long ago. "Do you want me to put it on you how Taylor used to wear them?" I asked and she passed it to me."Beautiful!" I shouted as I did that Italian kiss thing where you kiss your fingers and throw your hand up and Georgia started giggling. "There's that gorgeous smile everyone know's and loves!" She looked down covering her face with her hands and then said she was going to go get dressed and I did the same.

Georgia's POV

I came back into Taylor's room and found Nash looking at a photo of me and Taylor from when we was little. "Cute weren't we?" I said making Nash jump while I did a fake half smile. "Yeah actually, who took the picture?" He asked me, I sighed, "That's the only photo we have that our parent's actually took of us." I explained looking down at my feet. Nash had no idea what to say so i'm guessing that's why he just came to me and hugged me while he rested his head on mine. I was on the verge of tears and then when he let go of me I got a notification on Taylor's phone, it was a text from his girlfriend saying -WHAT THE! WHY HAVE YOU NOT FUCKING TEXT ME BACK? ARE YOU FUCKING SOME WHORE! YOU KNOW WHAT IF I DON'T GET A TEXT BACK FROM YOU IN T MINUTES WE'RE DONE!- I called her instead of texting back, on the second ring she answered me, "Where the fuck are you? I swear Caniff if your fucki-" I cut her off screaming down the phone, "DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHERE MY BIG BROTHER IS? HE'S FUCKING DEAD! YOU HAPPY NOW? YEP YOU CAN END YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH A FUCKING DEAD KID!" And with that I hung up and fell onto Taylor's bed.

"I can't do this Nash." I said as I broke down in tears. "Hey it's going to be okay Georgia I promise. Look the rest of the boy's will be here soon and if you don't want anyone to come today you don't have to have anyone. It can just be you if you want?"I wanted all the boys there except Carter and Aaron, "I only want you guys there no one else, no family, they were never there for me growing up. It was always just me and Taylor as kids until we met you and Cam then you guys introduced me to the rest of the boys and since then you guys were my family. Not Kenzie, Not my mom not my dad. It was always you guys!" I explained between sobs and then I noticed Taylor's phone was blowing up with texts from his fans asking why he hadn't been posting at all since about 12:00 pm yesterday. I realized that they still thought he was alive! They had no clue! "Nash, the fans. They don't know about Taylor!How are we going to tell them?" I asked in tears, "We can do it however you want. The next show is tomorrow night in LA so if you want you can tell everyone then?" Nash asked and I just nodded. I guess that was the best way for them to find out. But we'll have to tell them after the show so they don't worry through out.

I got up and went to Taylor's wardrobe and found out his dodgers baseball jersey and his blue ripped jeans. I then went to wear he kept all of his shoes and got his favorite vans that were black with the white underpart. Then I went to his set of draws that he kept full of his bandannas and I got his best red one. Because that was the first one he ever had and I was the one that bought it for him. It took a while to find but I found it.