Was it always you? ~ H.G

Chapter 23

Georgia's POV

We were almost there and I couldn't help but tear up. I promised Taylor on his death bed that I wouldn't cry but I couldn't not. I think Nash noticed because he put his hand on my thigh as he just looked forward and carried on driving. I looked up at him and just had a faint smile on my face. Thinking about it Nash and I have become a lot closer than we were before. I mean he's always been there for me. I like Mark and all but I think I might love Nash and not just as a friend either. 

"Gee, me too..." Nash spoke up out of the blue. Shit did I really say everything out loud?

"Yep!" Nash started giggling like a little girl. Shit guess I did the same with that then? Fuck my life I gotta stop saying my thoughts all the time. 

"Gee? You're still going!" Nash explained between giggles. 

"Oh shit I'm so sorry you weren't meant to here any of that!" I nervously giggled out of embarrassment. "Gee it's fine, but we should talk about this after the funeral yeah?" He asked as I nodded in agreement.

*At The Funeral*

I walked to the front and handed them Taylor's clothes to dress him in about a half hour beforee the funeral service started. As I passed them over I looked down and just saw his body, so lifeless. It felt so weird not seeing him without a smile on his face and without him screaming down my ear. 

I started over thinking and somehow ended up remembering all of our child hood memories.

*Flashback to when Gee was 8*

"TAYLOR YOUR GONNA DIE!" I screamed up to Taylor with fear all over my face because he was on our roof about to jump into our pool. Nash and Cam were sat behind me laughing so hard they could barely breathe. They held their phones up to record it. 

"I'M GOING FOR IT!" Taylor shouted and I turned into Nash holding onto him because I couldn't watch then all of a sudden, *SPLASH* I was covered in water.

"Come on Georgia you're doing it with me this time Taylor shout ed climbing out of the pool and placing me over his shoulders making me laugh and scream. He pushed me onto the roof then climbed up after me, "Ready?" Taylor asked me crouching down to my height with a smile on his face. "I can't do it Tay.." I mumbled looking at the roof I was stood on.

"Don't worry baby sis I got you, okay?" "Okay." I said just above a whisper as he lifted me up and I rapped my arms and legs around him and he gripped onto me with one arm and the other randomly in the air. Both of us screaming until we went under the water. Taylor let go of me as soon as we hit the water but my body refused to let me let go so he swam to the surface with me still attached. 

When we surfaced we both just giggled and then Cam and Nash took a selfie with me and Taylor still in the water and them two on the pool side.

*end of flashback*

I giggled at the memory and then my eyes got watery because I remembered that i'd never have my big brother there to make me feel safe either when i'm scared or when he makes me do dumb shit with him. 

I promised him I wouldn't cry so I sucked it up and went to sit in a chair at the front with the other boys.

*time skip to the burial*

"Nash will you come with me to see Taylor one more time before we bury him please?" I asked looking up too meet Nash's ocean blue eye's looking down at me, "Of course babyG." Oh my God did he jus- Oh my God he did! I'm glad he's here with me to see my brother.

I didn't even know what to say when I saw him. I couldn't physically say anything. I just choked. "Alright come on then we need too  b-" "NO! Wait...." I exclaimed as the burial people started to close his casket. I pushed it back open and removed my ring. It was a ring that Taylor got me for my 13th birthday because I was 'finally a big girl'. "I love you Tay-Weezy!" I whisper shouted to him placing my ring on his chest and kissing his forehead.