Me and Hayes were on speaking terms again finally, after he found out he freaked and at first didn't want me to keep the baby so I completely ignored him for about 2 or 3 weeks, I didn't know if I wanted this baby but I wasn't going to kill an innocent kid and then not even give it a chance to live.
He's decided that if i'm serious about giving birth to this child then I have to stop smoking fags but I am aloud to smoke spliffs. No drinking though. I have to stop partying starting at the end of this month because I begged him to let me keep going out because just because I', having a child doesn't mean my life's gonna just end.
Out of all of the boys it's only Gilinsky, Johnson and Hayes that know. All of the girls except for Lox know i'm pregnant too and they're all becoming really protective of me making everyone else really confused. I was going to tell the others but I just want to wait, after Hayes's reaction I'm scared of what the other's will think, especially Nash, I mean he's gonna be an uncle before he's a dad. They still don't suspect that though I don't think because my belly hasn't started showing yet and even when it does they'll probably just think that I'm getting fat for a while because i'm getting really bad cravings recently and not really going out anymore except when like Jack asks me to meet him somewhere or something like that.
Hayes is finally getting me to use my sleeping pills, not every night but a lot more often than before so I am getting quite a bit of sleep now. Tomorrow's gonna be the last stop of the tour, Nebraska so I won't have to struggle with flying, performing and in general pissing about on stage with everyone.
"Hayes!" I scream because he wasn't in my room and I was getting really bad cramps which he would usually help me with.
" What! What!What happened baby!?" he rushes in all worried.
"CrAMpS!" I Yell at him as I lay back on my bed, curled up in a ball.
He lays down with my cuddling me, every now and again giving me little kisses which surprisingly helped a lot.
"Babe, your gonna have to get up soon, you have a meeting with the principal later about your grades and behavior." Hayes says making me start moaning, I really hate that place, and Dennis's face, I had enough enough of looking at it now and I only go for 1 or two lessons a day.
"Fineeeee!" I say standing up after him starting to give me a lecture on how important this is if we want to finish with a good education and get a good job.
I go to my walk in wardrobe and take out a comfy outfit consisting of some plain black leggings and my duck camo long ass Yeezus short sleeved top. Then I put on my white Yeezy's and to make my self look presentable I put my curly hair up in a messy bun and put on a gold chain with matching gold hoops. I had natural make up with glossy lip stick on and false lashes.
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