It'll Be Our Secret

Anxiety and Interviews

"YES!"

I am so excited! I get to go on a date with the girl of my dreams!

"Perfect." I hugged Lauren and then decided to give her a peck on the lips before letting her shower.

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We were about to start an interview, but Lauren and I were both anxious.

First, because Camren shippers are better than the freaking FBI.

Second, because now that something actually is going on, it'll be harder than ever to keep our eyes off of each other.

Ever since Lauren and I met, I know for sure that I couldn't keep my eyes off of Lauren.

And to be honest, I have looked at Camren videos on YouTube and such, and it looks like Lauren couldn't keep her eyes off of me as well.

We had a connection when we met. It was strange, it was like, I could see into her soul when I looked into her eyes. Her planet green eyes that attack you.

It's like I could see who she was.

I see her as, my best friend, my soul mate, and the love of my life.

I feel like I fell in love with her the moment I saw her at X-factor.

When we competed against each other, I guess it was fate that we ended up in Fifth Harmony together. Like the world wanted us to be together.

We were super flirty, and then something happened.

The management told us to stop interacting in front of the cameras, because it attracted to much attention.

Not being able to interact in front of the camera, actually eventually affected us behind the cameras.

She stopped calling me Camz, and instead called me Camila instead. That one I think hurt me the most.

She stopped looking at me as much as she used to and we also stopped holding hands.

It all hurt.

And that leads us to this moment.

The interview was called, 'Bo$$ or To$$.

I stood by Dinah, while Lauren was on the end.

The game basically was Boss it or toss it, for example:
Boss or toss, wearing bright lipstick.

I would say toss. I'm more on the neutral side.

The interviewer said a few Boss or Toss questions, but one stood out to me.

Lauren and I were kind of flirting, but I think the girls saw it as just complimenting each other. I was trying really hard not to, but I think Lauren really felt something if she was willing to risk so much for me.

"Boss or Toss, kissing someone you're on tour with."

I couldn't help but blush and look Lauren up and down, and she just glanced at me.

She then smiled and blushed though.

The girls could tell that I looked at Lauren, I think.

After the interview the girls came to talk to us on the tour bus.

We all walked back to the room with the couch and hung out back there.

We all sat in silence and Lauren and I were looking down.

"Girls, I think we need to talk about what has been going on." Ally was the first to break the silence.