It'll Be Our Secret

Anxiety

"Good morning,"

"Buenos Dias Lolo,"

"I love you so much, Camz."

I bite my lower lip, "I love you too."

I guess Lauren carried me onto the bus and lyed me down on the couch.

"You aren't going to be one of the couples that says 'oh my, I love you' every single day right?"

We were interrupted by Dinah, who was standing in the kitchen wrapped in a brightly colored blanket.

That's surprising that we didn't hear her, because she is typically very loud.

"Good morning to you too, Dinah." I glared at her for interrupting our moment.

"I think me interrupting you is fine, because you both probably do that everyday, and then go watch porn together." She smirked.

I had to get out of bed and go and slap her on the arm for saying that.

"DINAH. We do not watch porn together!" I stood by her.

"Sure, Chancho, sure."

She walked over to where I was sleeping and sat down, and motioned for me to come over there with her.

"Ok, I'm sorry for teasing you. I know it's been rough, and-"

"Can we um... please not talk about what happened and move on? I don't want to have another panic attack..."

"You had a panic attack?" Dinah looked at me with shocked eyes.

"Yes, when I was in the hospital room. You guys had already gone home, and I didn't want to worry you by telling you."

"Chancho! You should have told us! I'm now even more worried sick about you!"

"I... also have..."

I paused.

"Have what?!"

"Anxiety. Even worse than before."

"CHANCHO HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME ABOUT THIS?"

She pulled me into a tight hug, and one that I could not breathe in.

"Dinah, I can't breathe," I whispered.

"Oh, sorry."

Lauren was standing in the kitchen, looking as if she was thinking very hard.

"Lolo, what are you thinking so hard about?" I said once Dinah had let me go.

"We have to go to trial, and I'm afraid that they will charge him as not guilty."

"How could he be not guilty when he really is guilty?" I asked.

"Because he has money, and knows how to blackmail people. People could lie in court. He could be paying someone, blackmailing someone. Maybe even... blackmail the judge..."

Oh no.

Yep. I just did that. I hate myself for it.