I sat in the car for about an hour crying looking up at his house, until I finally found the courage to get out of the car, and went up to the door. I took a deep breath, and knocked on it. I heard foot steps, and then the door opened making my heart beat faster. There was Vic's mom, she looked at me, and a smiled played across her face. Oh how I was gonna miss her too. I was gonna miss her cooking, and Vic's dad. Oh how I was gonna miss sitting around the table with them, and just hear him tell us these stories about, when he was a little boy. Oh god then there was Mike, I got to know him so much over the last 2 and, a half years. He would call me his Bestie, and Vic would always get jealous when we used to hang out. Mike would always fuck around with Vic. Saying he was gonna steal me away from him. I found it adorable when Vic got jealous, cause he knew I was his, and only his. "Amber, I didn't know you were coming over, Vic never told me anything" she said moving back to let me in. I smiled at her "He doesn't know I'm coming over, is he in his room?" I said looking at her, I wanted to bust into tears, but held them back. "Yeah, he told me he was just about to go see you in a little, hell be happy your here." She said as I started walking down the hall.
It felt like it took me forever to get to his bedroom. I stopped right before I was about to be in front of his door way. I heard him, and mike talking. Finally I walked up to his bedroom and looked in, at first he didn't notice me because he had head phone on. Mike was in LA LA land so he didn't see either, then Vic looked up, and smile when he saw me. He was looking adorable today. He was wearing mostly all black. He had a black hat, with a black sweat shirt, that had designs going up both side of his arm, black skinny jeans and all brown vans. I didn't look away from his smile. Finally Mike saw me. He got up and put his arm around me. "Hey there" he said biting his lip. I smiled, and I held back more tears. I was gonna miss this boy. "Hi Mike" I said rolling my eyes. "Do you mind if I talk to Vic alone for a minute." I asked Mike, still staring at Vic. "You may milady" he said grabbing my hand, and kissed it as his walked off. Vic gave him a look, saying I'm gonna kill you. Mike chuckled, and left shutting the door behind him. I'm just gonna say it and leave. I'm not gonna let him stop me.
I sat down next to Vic, he looked at me. I couldn't give him direct eye contact. I know if I looked at him, I was gonna burst into tears. Oh I can do this. "What is it you want to talk about babe?" Vic asked me, putting his fingers under my chin, bringing my face closer to his trying to give me a kiss, but right before he did. I shook my head "I can't Vic, I'm sorry. I never wanted to do this. I never wanted to hurt you. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry" I keep repeating that. "Amber, what are you talking about, what's going on?" Vic said, and I can hear the panic behind his voice. "I'm leaving Vic, mom wants to move to Texas, she wants to get better, and I'm going with her." I said finally looking him in the eyes.
I saw the sadness in his eyes, as I said I was going with her. I knew I hurt him, just then a tear came down his face. "No, no , no" is all he keep saying. Oh god how was I gonna put up with myself. I just hurt the one person, I promise I never would. "You can't do this to me amber, you can't just leave me." He said grabbing by my arms shaking me. "I'm so so sorry Vic" I said feeling my eyes water. "Stay with me, you don't have to go, you can tell your mom your gonna live with me." He said, but I just shook my head no. "I'm sorry Vic, but she already bought my ticket, and I promised I would do anything to help her get better, and I'm gonna stick to that" I said just as I felt a tear come down my cheek.
"Then I'm coming with you, I'm not leaving you amber, you cant do this to me. What happened to you promising me that you'll never leave, LOOK what's you're doing!? Your leaving me" he said standing up crying. "I'm sorry Vic, but I want you to stay here, and finish college, you can't just leave your mom, and dad. You'll do fine. It might take a couple months, but you'll get over me." I said as I got up gave him a hug, and walked out his room, and ran out to my car. I needed to hurry up and get home. I got in my car, and right before I pulled off Vic came out his house looking at me. I drove off, and I saw out the driver side mirror Vic fall down on his knees crying, and Mike coming outside, and picking him up. I bursted out in tears. I'm such a fuck up. How could I have done this, to the person that I love. I just broke his heart. He will never love me again, hell never forgive me.
I got home, and ran to the back yard, and climbed up the tree. I cried, and cried just letting it all out. All I could think about was the look on Vic's face as he fell to his knees. I hurt him, I fucking hurt him. I ran up to my room, and pulled out my razor. I haven't used this sense 8th grade. I grabbed it, and dragged it along my wrist, I keep doing it. Just then my door to my room flew open. I looked up in shook, standing there was Vic. He looked at me, and then at my wrist. He ran over to me, grabbing me in a hug. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Vic, I never meant to hurt you, I never meant for any of this to happen" I said crying just looking down at my scars. "Shh, shh he said everything is gonna be okay. Amber please just stay here with me." He said and I could tell he was crying. "I'm sorry I can't, I have to be there for my mom, I have to be there to help her out. She's going to need me." I said as I got up going to the bathroom. "Then I'm coming with you" he said softly. I looked at him "Vic, you gotta stay here with your family, they need you too. You can't just leave them" I said, and finally he let out a sigh, "at least let me help you pack, and take you to the airport" he said. I bursted out into tears, this was way harder then I thought.
Vic helped me pack, and when the time came, he took me, and my mom to the airport. "Thank you so much forever you have done, I can never tell you how sorry I am, that I have to take amber away, but it for our own good." My mom said to Vic. "Maybe as time goes on, I'll let her come visit." She said smiling. I just stood there, holding on to Vic. He was holding on to me tight, I know once it time for me to leave, he was gonna have such a hard time. I looked up at his face "I love you Vic, remember when you feeling down, just look up at the moon, and know I'll be looking at it too." I said as a tear fell down my cheek. I've cried so much today. He wiped away my tear. "I love you too Amber, here I want you to have this." He said taking a necklace out of his pocket. I noticed it, and remember that it was the necklace he used to wear all the time. I turned around, as he put it on.
Just then I heard over the speakers "Houston, Texas now boarding" I looked up at Vic, and hugged him tight. I didn't want to leave, and he didn't want me to leave, but I had too. "Kiss me one last time" he said. I looked up at him. He put his hand under my chin, and pulled me closer, finally our lips met, and he kissed me softly. I pulled away, just as my mom pulled my sleeve telling me to come on, "bye Vic" I said as I kissed him on the cheek, and started walking off. "Bye amber" he said as another tear came down his cheek. I turned around, and walked away. I turned back one more time, and he was gone.
