It's a few days later right now. They are in the studio recording Now Or Never.
POV Christina
They are plotting something against me. Or I'm just missing something that is exciting. Lauren is sitting there talking with Amy. Katherine and Lisa are talking together and Dani is sitting on her phone. And I'm busy with the harmonies. Why can't anyone help me? Normally Lisa helps me. But she said something about a sore throat.
I don't believe it. She has to sing her own part in a few minutes and she is ready for that. Why can't she just help me with the harmonies?
"Dani? It's your turn" I say. Dani sighs and lays her phone down. What is her problem? She is just moody the last time. And she is always away. Always when I come to their house she isn't home. She doesn't have that many friends.
"Where are the lyrics?" She asks me. Didn't she learn her song lyrics? Does she even know what she is singing? "Just pick your phone and search it on the internet", I say getting a little bit annoyed. Well, I'm already annoyed but I'm not showing it. Dani walks to the couch and picks her phone up.
Then she searches the lyrics and we can finally begin.
"I'm turnin' off the light right now, I'm calling it a night"
She begins starting on the wrong second. This is going to be a long day...
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I sit down giving myself some rest. I'm still pregnant. We are recording here for hours and we're only half down. Normally it wouldn't be this long, but they all weren't prepared. Well, they don't try to show it but I can see through their act.
I want to lay my hand on my belly, but then I realize I can't do that. They will think I'm pregnant. Wait? Can they even think that when you lay your hand on your belly?
Well, I still don't take risks.
We're here too long. I see Dani and Lauren getting mad at each other. I see Amy almost falling asleep, still trying to be awake. Lisa is only on her phone and Katherine is recording her part without anyone helping her.
I was helping the whole time! But I can't do everything. I'm also tired.
Then Lauren steps up and she decides to help Katherine. Dani gives her a glare and goes back to her phone. Okay, this is not usually. Of course, they have fights sometimes. But that was a really mean glare. Not a glare I'm used to from Dani.
Maybe I'm just overthinking? I have to calm down. Stress is not good in a pregnancy. I already had one appointment this weekend with my doctor. Right now I'm three weeks pregnant!
On one side I'm really excited. I'm going to have a child of my own. My own little bean. He/she is going to have a wonderful big family. With a lot of aunts or uncles who are going to love him/her.
And then you have the side of me who is afraid. I'm afraid Nick and I have to do this alone. Without his/hers family.
I don't want my children to grow up without a family. We don't even know what Nick his family is going to think about this. They are just like my family. They believe in God. And you have to listen to him. And we did wrong.
"Christina? We are done", Katherine says standing in front of me. Done? I look at Lauren. "Did you already sing?", I ask her. Lauren was supposed to record after Katherine. Lauren nods her head. Wow, they did that fast.
I see everyone looking at me. Okay, time to go in your leader role Christina. "Okay, then we're done for the day", I say. Everyone sighs from happiness. "Wednesday we're going to film the video, be ready. Makeup and clothes all done.Will send the time when I have it. If you have planned anything else just change the date", I say looking at them. They all nod and then they walk away. Katherine stays with me to clean everything up and to close the studio with me.
She also came with me in the car so she doesn't really have any choice. "Christina? Can I ask you something?", Katherine asks me. I nod at her. "Do you also see that everyone is acting weird?", she asks me. I nod again. She is also acting weird. Not just everyone else.
"You're also acting weird", she says. No.... She doesn't know. How can she know? I didn't drop any hint, did I? "No, I'm not", I say while I pick up some candy wraps from Dani. "You are!", she says abruptly.
"Katherine?! You're also acting weird! Can you just drop it?! We're all acting weird so don't act like I'm the only one!", I snap at her. I see her face expression getting sad.
I'm really sorry that I snapped but she made it feel like I did everything wrong. But I'm not the only one. And I just can't tell it to her. This is something I have to tell to them all. Together.
She stays silent and she goes back to cleaning. I also go back. I close up the studio pick my laptop up. Together with her, I walk outside. As soon as we open the door we see Lauren and Dani still standing outside the building. We were probably in the building for like 20 minutes. Why are they still there?
They are looking at us. Like they are waiting for us to leave so that continue their conversation.
"What are you guys doing here?", I ask them. I see Dani getting nervous but Lauren quickly says: "Just talking, you can go". I look at them. Okay, in the studio they were mad at each other and now they are talking to each other?
Maybe they are making up? I look at them and then at Katherine. She just shrugs. "Okay? See you Wednesday?", I see a little bit awkward. Awkward. It's only like that lately.
"See you", Dani says and then Katherine and I walk away. "Okay, that was weird", I say to Katherine. Katherine just glares at me.
"Everyone is acting weird, we can't just blame them", she says referring to our conversation early. Okay, that was just mean. I open my car door and together we get in. I drive away, but not looking at Dani and Lauren first.
Dani is looking angry at Lauren. And Lauren looks at Dani with a face without any emotions.
Things are not getting better
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Wow, wow, wow, what is happening? Christina kinda fighting with Katherine? Lauren and Dani fighting? Katherine just wants to know what's going on. ;(. Christina is just afraid of their reaction. Yeah.. And with Lauren and Dani? What's going on between them? You will see that in the next chapter ;).
Don't know if I'm able to upload tomorrow though.. :/
