The Nameless Angel

Chapter 25- The "talk"

(TRIGGER WARNING VERY SAD)
I felt a tear form in my eye. "They said I had an egg that could be fertile apparently it doesn't know how to find sperm." I kinda laugh cried. I felt him hand on mine. "Look at me baby," he said in a soft voice. I looked over at him I went to wipe my tears but he did it for me. "I know you want them, but you know you aren't ready, when your ready and you know, we could adopt, or even try to have one." He smiled. "But what if we try and then it never works, or maybe I do get pregnant and I miscarry of it dies at birth," I started spitting out what ifs like that's all I could think. "What if I get hurt in the process of having the baby, what if we can't ad-" I felt a finger fall on my mouth. "Stop with the what ifs, live present not the future," he smiled. "Can I tell you a story?" I asked. "Go ahead," he smiled. "So when you left the second time this kid, named Eli came up thinking I was his mother," I smiled. "I really liked that moment, until he started talking about how she had these scars just like me and that the angels took her to a better place but they brought her back," I started to cry again. "Then his grandma ran up like I was hurting him," "she looked me in the eyes and told me the story of how we got separated at birth and that my mother set her up for adoption, and how she killed herself. Year ago," I stoped wiping the tears. "She gave me her number, I never called instead I thought, I can't have children, my boyfriend left me, so I decided it was best to end it like she did," I could see the sadness in his eyes but he let me continue. "So I ran a warm bath and used your razor, I thought it would make me remember you, like I used something you used to hurt me." I stopped choking on my words. "An-and I knew you had responded which made me go off, I just started cutting my wrists deep then when I ran out of arms space I cut my thighs a little," I stopped looking at him. "And I actually thought so bad that I didn't have a future that I said I wasn't bleeding out enough so I drowned myself, making it go faster," I smiled softly. "Then when you came back, it made all my sadness run away like you were the only happy thing I needed to be rid my depression," I stopped as he slightly smiled. I set my hand on his. "That's when I knew I wanted to spend my life with you, even if there were rough patches and maybe I could never have children, but being with you was better than all of that, you are better than happiness Luke," I looked at him. "You are what keeps me alive," I hugged him squeezing as I cried into his arms. I felt a softly laid kiss on my neck to soothe me. The tears wouldn't stop I cried and cried until my eyes got dry and I started to hiccup. "It's ok baby," I felt his hand rub my back. He never let go. Never once did he stop trying to help. Then probably after like 20 minutes of me straight crying I let go looking at him. I set my hand on his chest. "I will always love you," I smiled kissing him. Then some fans came running up maybe around 16. "Omg it's Luke Hemmings can we have your autograph and a photo?" They asked. He looked at me and I nodded scooting away so they could fit. When they started walking away, I think they said it so I could hear. "Who was that whore, probably just some chick Luke was trying to make feel better and she took it too far," the darker one laughed. "Or she just saw him and started to kiss him and he didn't wanna be rude." They light one laughed. "Excuse me," I said. "Pft," one laughed. "What," the other scowled. "He happens to be engaged to the "random white who took it to far,"" I laughed. "Whatever you wanna think," they both laughed. "Excuse me ladies," Luke smiled. "Yes," they smiled. "This is my fiancé and I'm proud about it, now if she's a whore she's my whore," he smiled kissing me. "Wow, were totally sorry," one said. I smiled tugging on his shirt. "Bye!" They smiled. I kept my lips pressed on his. "We should go back to the hotell," I whined. "Baby we were on a roll we haven't in like a month, we're doing good," he smiled I switched topics "thanks," I smiled. "For what?" He asked as we started to walk back to the guys. "Back there, I was just going to let it slide, but you stepped up," I smiled holding his hand. "Hey your my soon-to-be wife, should I have just left you there to get bullied like you were in highschool?" He asked. "How did you know I was bullied in highschool?" I asked. "Oh you didn't know, but I had my eyes set on you the first day I saw you, I followed you around, I even ran into once or twice," he smiled. "Wow," I laughed as we made it to where they were. "Ugh this stuff is heavy, can my boys help me?" I asked laughing. "Not me!" Michael smiled. "Booty calls," he winked. "Wait don't you mean duties?" I asked as he started to walk away. "No I meant what I said." He laughed. "Ew.." I gagged. "Calum, Ashton, Luke?" I looked at them. "Now to think of it I think my girlfriend needs me," Ashton said running off. "Calum?" I asked. "Alright," he smiled helping me. "Sorry about earlier," he smiled carrying my black shoes in a shoe box. "It's fine me and Luke figured out what I was really getting offended over," I laughed. "Be careful," I said to Calum. "What they're shoes," he laughed. "Almost 80$ shoes," I laughed. "Jesus!" He seemed surprised. Luke was carrying my dresses and my Peach shoes, I had my lippies and my outfits. "I paid for them," Luke looked at me. "You liked them, I thought that maybe they could help you," I winked. "Help me with what?" He looked at me. "Well you haven't been wanting sex," I laughed. "Angel," I sighed. "What?" I laughed. "Were not having sex because you want a kid and you know you aren't ready," he smiled. "Ok ok, so we're waiting, until?" I asked tippy toeing. "Until we're married," he smiled. "What! I can't wait that long, I want a spring wedding no!" I sighed. "It's winter," I sighed. "Not in Australia," Calum added. So we only have to wait a couple months,, Luke smiled. "Fineeee!" I laughed as we made it to the car. "Why are you so damn adorable?" I asked. "Because if you weren't I would've already been gone," I smiled. "Like you said, you love meeee," he smiled pecking me on the lip. "So we can't even tease?" I asked. "We can it matters what kind of teasing you're thinking of," he laughed. As the driver was driving I unbuckled getting on top of Luke. "Oh that kind of teasing he smiled kissing me. We were so close to the hotel so I just thought we wouldn't get caught. So I started kissing him grinding myself against him. I could feel him getting hard. My core was throbbing needing him. I whispered can you please touch me?" I asked. He put his hand down my shorts making me moan against his lips. After a couple minutes we started seeing people so I buckled as he waved and yelled out the car. I set my hand on his hard laying my head on his shoulder. Suddenly his phone started going crazy. He was tagged in so many photos. One said, "Luke has a fiancé I didn't even know he had a girlfriend, keeping secrets are me?" And another stated, "who is this girl with her hand on his dick and her head on his shoulder???" I removed my hand and sunk down into the chair. "Slow down the car," he said unbuckling. As he yelled out the window. "THIS IS MY FIANCÉ I LOVE HER TO DEATH," as he sat back down buckling. "Wow.." I laughed. "I do," he smiles. "I do too I kissing him as the window was rolled up.
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