The Nameless Angel

Chapter 40- A World Without You

I started reading a book called A world without you, 371 pages, I'm on page 71. There was a knock on the door. "Ugh," I set my bookmark in the book. I opened the door to my mother, "hey mum what are you doing here?" I asked, she was supposed to be in Australia. "I came here, so we can throw a baby shower!" She smiled. "Mom I'm only 2 months, I still have 2 till we find the sex," I sighed plopping onto the bed. "Doesn't mean we can't throw a party!" She laughed. Luke came out of the shower with a towel around his waist. "Oh sorry," he laughed. "No it's fine," my mother winked.
"Mum!" I yelled covering my face. "It's not like you haven't seen him before," she laughed. "Well you haven't," I threw a pillow at her. "Eh, I've seen his brothers can't be too far apart," she laughed. "I've seen his brothers too, but he's better," I winked up at Luke kissing his cheek. "Well I'm going to go back into the bathroom to change." He smiled. Then Michael came out of Meghan's room with a shirt on. "Can people please put clothes on!" I whined. "Sorry Meghan was thirsty," he laughed. "Why not go for round 20 tonight!" I laughed. "Hey babe," she kissed his cheek. "MEGHAN PUT PANTS ON," I laughed. "This is my apartment too, I can walk around without clothes on." She stuck her tongue out. "God," I laughed. "she has an exception, she's pregnant," my mum said sitting on my bed. "I wouldn't sit there, you do not know what they do," Meghan laughed. "We don't do anything!" I hit her side. "My mum doesn't need to know about my sex life, which doesn't exist," I winked as Luke walked out. "Oh no I've heard you two," Michael laughed. "Shut up," I slapped his bare stomach. "I really would love to know about my daughters sex life, but after we throw a baby shower!" She smiled. "Mum I'm not throwing a baby shower for first, a baby we don't know the sex to, and second one that might die!" I yelled grabbing milk. "Jesus," Meghan laughed. "You get depressing when your pregnant," my mum added. "Ugh," I laid back on my chair. Luke picked up my book, "A World Without You?," he laughed. "It's a great book!" I grabbed the book out of his hand. "I never said it wasn't," he laughed. "Sorry," I sighed. "It's ok," he laughed. "Everyone out, they're going to have sex!" Michael laughed running into Meghan's room, followed by Meghan. I kissed him and moved on. "I just need to clean up," I started freaking out.
(Luke's POV)
She started cleaning things that didn't need to be cleaned. "Honey maybe you should leave the house," her mother added. "I need to clean this horrible apartment!" She stated. "Baby, the apartment humane dirty," I wrapped my arms around her torso to stop her. "No no!" She wiggled. "It's ok," I laughed. She stopped wiggling as I set her on the bed. "You and your mum are going shopping, I'll stay here ok," I laughed. "Ok fine!" She laughed. "Let me get dressed," she laughed.
She put on a yellow sun dress that was a little big so her "bump" that's she's so afraid of wouldn't show. I pecked her on the lips and she left. I grabbed the book A world without you, off her desk and started to read.
(ALYSONS POV)
I walked out of the apartment, in a yellow dress that didn't show off my large stomach. I hated it so much people would ask if I was gaining weight from depression. No I'm just carrying a child inside of me. "Where do you wanna go first?" She asked. "Foooodd!!" I whined. "Where?" She asked. "Mcdonald!!" I laughed. I haven't went outside in a month because I was scared of what people would think, I'm a 19 almost 20 years old pregnant girl. It gets difficult, then I get judged. "Honey," my mum tried to get my attention. I didn't respond.
My mum thinks sometimes I go into another universe. And sometimes I do.
(Alysons Mind)
I walked up the stairs to my Dorm. It was my last year of college and I was doing great, fantastic boyfriend, fantastic friends. I had everything. I got a call from my mother, "hello," I said into the phone, "honey I have something to tell you," she stopped. "Okey! I'm almost to my dorm just give me a second!" I laughed. I ran up to my dorm and saw Meghan. She nodded, "ok talk," I laughed. The words filled my brain.
After the call I started to cry. The words Cancer, 3 weeks, death, terminal, stage 4. Oh god my mothers dyeing. What the hell! This is my dream. Everything is supposed to be perfect!
For the next hour I called my boyfriend and all of my friends. "Baby baby calm down." Calums large arms comforted me. Ever since I was early 16 I had been in love with Calum Hood. He wasn't in college he was traveling the world with his mates but he made all the time to come see me. He was my first, and I intended him to be my last.
    As he cuddled me into his chest. "Shh baby," he smiled. Then his phone went off. He looked at me and nodded. "Hey dude," he stopped. "Right now isn't a good time, she just found out her mother has stage 4 cancer," he stopped. "I can't tell her!" He yelled hanging up. "Sorry baby," he forced a smile onto his face and comforted me. "What can't you tell me?" I asked. "It can wait," he kissed me. "Dont lie to me," I sighed. "Fine, Luke wants me to break up with you because we are going on tour," he sighed. "I'm not doing it now tho," he smiled. "It's fine," I sighed. "I knew this wasn't going to work out at all," more tears rushed down my face faster. "I'm not breaking up with you!" He said louder. "Just get out," I sighed crying. "Baby," he looked at me. "I'm sorry I've ruined your life," I hugged him so tight. "I don't want to let go!" I cried into his chest. "Then don't," he smiled against my face. "I won't!" I squeezed him. "I'm coming with you," I looked up at him. "Babe," he looked sadly at me. "It's not a good idea with my mum, and how much your friend Luke hates me," I sighed. "But I can't be alone," I sighed. "Fine," he picked me up. "You whore!" Meghan walked in. "You're texting my boyfriend!" She slapped me. "I.." I grabbed her hand. "He wanted to propose to you, but you broke it off before he could," I let go. "Sure!" She slapped me again. "He told me you sent him nudes!" She slapped me again. "I HAVE PROOF I DIDNT!" I started to cry as I grabbed my phone. I showed her the messages. "So, maybe you deleted it," she glared. "Fine don't believe me," I cried. "I don't ever want to see you again." She stated. I looked at Calum. He smiled at me and grabbed my hand pulling me out of the room. He pushed his lips onto mine.
    I rushed my hands through his hair tugging slightly. "I'm still sad," I smiled. "I know baby," he smiled pecking my lips. I pecked his again kissing him. He kissed down my neck causing me to moan. "This whole day has went wrong," I moaned against the wall. "I know baby I'm sorry," he smiled against my neck. "Can we go to your house?" I asked him. "Yes cmon," he picked my up bridal style. As we walked to his car we got stopped. "Miss." A man said. I turned around and saw Meghan's ex. "What do you want," I said. "You," he pushed his lips onto mine. "Get the fuck off of me," I pushed him off running. "Dude!" Calum pushed him running after me.
     "God what's wrong with this day?" I asked angry. "Baby, it's your birthday!" He looked at me. "What?" I asked. "Your turning 21 today, it's June 14th," he smiled at me. "Omg," I kissed Calum as took me home.
    "Look who it is, Whore of the century!" Luke laughed. I rolled my eyes, "look who's talking, druggie dead beat dad," I spit At him. I felt kinda bad. "Sorry," I rushed my hands through my hair. "That was too far," I looked at him who was right in front of me, towering over me. "It's ok," he smiled tears in his eyes. He kissed my cheek "happy birthday," he smiled. "Thanks," I cried. Why was he being so sweet, everything is so backwards today. Then I got a call. "Hello is this Miss. Vacanti?" A man asked. "Yes!" I stated. "Your mother, she has died," he said. "Oh god," I felt tears from harder. I felt strong arms but they weren't Calum's. "Thank you, I'll make my way down there as fast as I can," I smiled wiping my tears.
   "She's dead," I cried into a green shirt. "What?" Calum walked out. "My mum, died," I cried. "I can't leave," Calum stated. "I'll take her," Luke suggested. "Thanks,"
   As he drove me, I felt something deeper than hatred. I felt his hand on my leg. The next 5 words he said made me fill with lust. "Everything's going to be ok," I smiled. Maybe me and Calum weren't meant for eachother after all. Maybe he was just the person to lead me to my soulmate. That night I cried about my mother ". And figured out Calum was cheating on me wit Meghan. That's what he was going to tell me, not about his stupid tour. "Luke," I looked over at the boy driving with tears in his eyes. "Thanks, for everything," I smiled setting my hand on his thigh. "Wanna get coffee sometime?" He asked. "Yes yes I would love that," I smiled. Even though that day was filled with sadness and death, meaningless love, it ended with a new beginning.
    A month after that me and Luke had went out, and I loved him. We didn't have sex because we were waiting, but it felt nice to know that he was there for me. My mothers funeral was sad, but I powered through. I figured out, Funerals aren't about death, they are about the life that person lived, with the people they cared about.
    I finished college but started a career of singing and joined a band with my new Besties, Jon, Margrett, and Khloe.
     (alysons Brain over)
   I felt my mother shake me. "What?" I asked. "We've been sitting in this café for the past 3 minutes and you haven't touched your coffee!" She laughed. "Sorry, I was just thinking," I smiled. "You and your little imaginative brain of yours," she smiled drinking her coffee.
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