I walked down the hall thinking about what I could say to him. I just want the truth I will love him no matter what. I passed the two red heads that I adored "She is so hot..." One of them said under their breath. I stopped and turned towards them both.
"Fred... George... I would think you both have better things to do than to talk about Professor Umbridge." They both cringed "you know very well we weren't talking about her!" Fred said defensively "yeah! Why would anyone want to talk about that cold blooded boar!" George finished.
"Well clearly both of you absolutely love it!..." I said turning around and strutting away "Oh, and boys! " I said turning back around gaining their attention "if you would mind please stop sending me exploding confetti frog hearts." I then turned back around and walked away. "No promises!" Fred yelled back as they both chuckled loudly.
I sighed once I made it to the door leading to the great hall, oh god... Remember to shut your minds eye. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath pulling open the door and walking towards the large staff table. I glanced at the table to see the black haired man that I loved. Remember to shut your minds eye... I repeated once more as I climbed the stairs to the staff table. I pulled out the chair next to Severus and sat down uncomfortably folding my hands on the table infront of me.
I avoided making eye contact as I stared at the door as it swung open as a few kids arrived early. Severus reached for my hand placing his on mine lightly I flinched. "Is everything alright?" He asked, don't do it... I warned myself. I fought the urge to turn my body towards him but lost.
I turned towards him and looked him in the eyes and tried smiling sincerely "yes... I am fine. Why do you ask?" I asked sweetly tilting my head slight. "You just seem very on edge." He replied looking at me worriedly.
He raised his hand to stroke my cheek and I flinched again. I averted my gaze from him as he set his hand back down. A large happy presence sat down next to me "Evenin' Professor (L/N)!" He said loudly. I looked up at Hagrid happily and smiled "Good evening Hagrid! How are things?" I asked sweetly.
"Thins ave bin goin well, Buckbeaks bin doin good! Ow bout yerself?" He asked once again loudly "I've been great. A few minor inconveniences but nothing too bad!" I replied loud enough so maybe Severus could kinda understand.
"I'm starvin avent eaten all day!" He exclaimed once more as the great hall filled with students. Everyone sat down, Dumbledore wasn't there neither was Minerva. I began getting a bit worried as Dolores stepped up to make an announcement.
"Good evening students and fellow co workers!" She announced with a devious smile. "Your head master has stepped down from his position and I... Headmistress Umbridge will be filling in for him." She hissed gaining a few gasps and groans, my eyes widened.
I turned towards Severus "What the hell?" I whispered he glanced at me then back at Umbridge in disbelief. "I know how upsetting it is to lose a head master. But I promise to all the students here that I will fulfill the needs of each and every one of you!" She said in her sing song voice. I took a sip of my red wine trying not to say anything I would regret.
"Professor McGonagall has unfortunately been committed to St. Mungo's for personal reasons and shall not return due to the state she is in." She continued I choked on my wine as I coughed quietly trying to rid the liquid from my lungs. Severus now looked at me quite concerned and patted my back lightly.
"What in the actually hell." I said louder "Now everyone... Dinner is served." She said gesturing for the food to appear. My plate had some pork chops, mashed sweet potatoe, and a dinner roll. I put my napkin in my lap trying to act casual, the last thing I want is for the students to worry about all of this. I grabbed my fork and picked at my sweet potatoes.
I picked up a small scoop and shoved it into my mouth, my stomach turned and I felt like I was going to throw up. Dumbledore must've known this was going to happen... Why else did he have that conversation with me? I took a deep breath and set my fork down picking up my chalice and pressing it against my lips taking a small sip.
My hands began shaking as I started to panic. He'll be okay won't he? I mean he's Dumbledore... He's always okay! I set the cup back down and set my hands in my lap admiring all the chattering students. Make your top priority to protect the children... Echoed in my mind by the infamous wizard that i already missed.
I couldn't eat anymore "Hagrid..." I said turning to the giant, he looked at me. He shoveled another large amount of pork into his mouth "do you want this?" I asked sweetly, he swallowed the food and smiled.
"Ya ain't eatin' anythin?" He asked I shook my head "I don't feel very well..." I said pushing the plate towards him "I could go and ave one of the elves fix ye somethin." he suggested. "No Hagrid, I'm good. Thank you though." I said trying to force myself to smile "alrigh' but if ye be needin anythin just tell me." He said sweetly as he continued shoveling food into his mouth.
Dinner was agonizingly long, as students finished their meals they began exiting the great hall as teachers waited patiently. Finally the last group, which was a small group of Hufflepuffs, had left. Umbridge didn't stay and eat she's too good for that. She left right after her announcement that she was taking over.
I stood from the table and began walking as Snape trailed behind me we walked silently through the corridors as our footsteps echoed along. We reached our rooms and he grabbed my wrist and roughly pulled me into his room shutting the door and shoving me up against a wall.
"What the hell Severus?" I asked offended, he glared down at me coldly "what's been going on with you lately?" He asked looking into my eyes trying to find an answer. My mind went blank as I pushed all my thoughts away "well..." I said trying to think of an excuse.
"I don't think I should tell you..." I blurted out my eyes going wide "tell me what?" He asked glaring deadly at me. "I-I... I went to see Sybil! She told me you used to be a death eater! I didn't know what to think..." I blurted out once again.
"Continue..." He said " Then I went to see Dumbledore... He knew this would happen. I was worried about you! Because... Because I love you!" I blurted out once more as I couldn't contain myself.
"What's going on with me?" I asked as I began sobbing "veritaserum..." He hissed "I knew you knew something... I slipped it in your wine." He continued. I struggled as I squirmed under his grip, he had me pinned against the wall.
"What the hell is wrong with you!" I asked "I couldn't figure out what was wrong with you." He admitted I calmed down slightly. He cares about me... He really does. He then let go of me and sat down on his bed with his head in his hands.
"You must hate me now..." He said sighing "just go... Leave me." He demanded I walked up to him and grabbing his left arm. I pulled his long cloak sleeve back which revealed his dark mark. I raised his arm to my lips and kissed his dark mark softly.
"Severus... I love you. It doesn't matter what you were it only matters what you decide to become." I said sweetly looking at his troubled features.
