Just You and I (ASTRO Sanha)

15

I rush back home and open the door.

Mei stands in the kitchen making dinner.

"Hey, you didn't answer my text? I just wanted to know where you were." Mei says concerned.

I set my phone down on the kitchen table and sigh.

"Parker?" Mei stops cutting the carrots.

I snap out of my thoughts once again. "Eh?"

"You didn't leave from where ever you were because of the text I sent right? I just wanted to know where you were that's all."

"Oh...you're not mad?" I ask.

"Of course not! Just send me a text letting me know where you all, that's all I need. You didn't leave because of me right?" Mei's worried and I can tell.

"Oh, no. I was...on my way home anyway when I got the text." I lied.

"Okay that's good to know." Mei smiles and continues chopping. "Where's your bag? I didn't see you come in with it."

Shoot. I left it in the practice room.

"I-I uh must of left it at school. My bad.." I sigh and start to help Mei with dinner.

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It's 2am and I can't sleep. I can't stop thinking.

Thinking about him. Thinking about Sanha too.

Well he's gone. He's back in America and I'm over him now anyway...

If I'm over then him, then why am I....

Why am I still thinking about him?

I need to stop. He didn't even like me. I just liked him...it was one sided.

This whole thing with Sanha is probably one sided too.

I kissed him didn't I? It was me not him. He didn't want to. I...I don't know anymore.

The whole scene starts to become blurry and everything gets messed up in my head.

What happened yesterday was my fault. It was me. He doesn't like me...it must be one sided.

Before I know it my pillow starts to feel a little wet. Tears streaming. I wipe my face and sit up. I can't go tomorrow.

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The morning comes and I tell Mei I feel sick. She tries to convince me to go but I'm too stubborn...even if halfway through the conversation I start to think I should go and own up to the ki- the thing between Sanha and I...

She tells me to rest up and that she'll notify the school as she gets up from sitting at the edge of my bed.

I do as she says...I sleep...for a long time.

Because my insomnia keeps me up at night, that means I get really tired during the day and if I can I'll sleep for 15 hours.

So that's what happens. I sleep for a while before I hear the doorbell ring.

I check the time on my phone. "4:00".

Both Mei and Junhee should be at work right about now so I'm left alone...

I get up and walk to the door. I opened it only to find the one person I was trying to avoid today...

Anyone could have guessed that it's Sanha, except me...

I'm speechless as I stare at the tall boy in front of me.

"Hey...can I come in?"