My Obnoxious Jock (BoyxBoy)

8. Memory Lane

⚠️ WARNING ⚠️
Get tissues and a warm blanket cause we're about to get emotional!!! I legitimately cried making this chapter and it might be just because I'm a little bitch or it's actually super sad!!

Okay good luck.
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Nicks pov:

He's gone...........

He's just, gone.

I've been in my room for the last 2 weeks because I don't think I have what it takes to face the world right now. I haven't really ate anything and sleep isn't even an option because every time I close my eyes I see him hanging.

I know that I'm the last person who deserves to feel this way and act this way but......... I really felt something for him.

I haven't talked to anything since it happened, not my parents or Jordan. Hell even Emily has came over trying to get me to talk, but, I don't want any of them.

I just want my Joshy.

I can still remember that day perfectly as if everything happened just a few hours ago.

(Start Music Now and cue the tears)

2 weeks earlier (Josh's suicide day)

I stood in the doorway trying to process what I was seeing, and then, I processed it all at once.

"JOSHHH!!" I yelled out as I ran across the room and immediately hoisted up his body so he was no longer hanging by the rope.

By this time Emily had come in and she was frozen at the sight of her best friend hanging from the ceiling.

Jordan was right behind her and quickly grabbed the chair and stood on it trying to untie Josh from the noose.

I felt Josh's body go completely limp in my arms as I brought him down to the ground.

I was crying and cradling him in my arms as I heard the faint sound of Jordan yelling at Emily to call 911.

I don't know how long I was sitting there but the next thing I know a bunch of people rush in and try to take my Josh away from me.

"NO!! Put him down! JUST LEAVE US ALONE!!!............please" the last part came out as barely a whisper.

I sat on he floor crying, not even aware of the strong arms wrapping around me trying to hold me together.

Their efforts meant nothing as I was already in to many pieces to be put back together successfully.

I finally came to senses and ran outside. Jordan followed me out knowing that I would want to go the hospital.

It was at this time that I noticed that Emily was no longer with us so I'm assuming she was already at the hospital.

The ride to the hospital felt long and all I could think about was how this was my fault.

I pushed him that last mile.

Be depended on me and because I was scared of being judged I pushed him away the one time he needed me to pull him close.

I did this to him.

It's all my fault.

All.

My.

Fault........

We arrived at the hospital and I walked into the waiting room noticing Emily and Josh's mom hugging eachother and crying.

It felt like we waited for hours when in reality it was probably only minutes.

The clock on the wall seemed to be the only thing I could hear as I zoned out all other voices.

I tried not to remember all of his little nerdy moments.

I was breathing heavily as I peaked out the window to try and see if he was gone. "I think the coast is clear...." I panted. "I feel like were in a zombie movie or a vampire movie and we are trying to get supplies for Maggie because she's pregnant. And Darryl is probably outside standing watch with Glen and waiting for us to return so we can all get out of here but were trapped so we cant go out and there signaling for us an-" "Okay I get the point I get it!"

We slowly opened the door and walked out and just as soon as I thought I was safe I felt someone grab my arm and push my up against the locker. "Joshy....... I feel a little hurt that you would run from me." Nick said as he put on the cutest puppy dog face ever. "I wasn't running. Its just I needed something from this classroom is all." He looked at me not believing me for one second.

I tried not to remember how broken he looked that day.

I kept repeating how sorry I was over and over as he shook his head and told me that it wasn't my fault, but I knew he was wrong. It was my fault, everything was. I was a horrible person and I deserved everything. I must be doing something wrong...... "I hate myself so much Nicky. I hate myself. I'm so stupid! I can never do anything right. I don't deserve this Nicky I- I- I cant anymore I'm sorry."

I tried to forget how even when he was broken he tried to make the bed out of the worst situations.

"Joshy....... how are you feeling?" He asked me with concerned eyes. "You know that train from the Polar Express? Ya I feel like it ran me over and then backed up to see what it hit." He smirked at my answer, "At least your making jokes, that's a good sign." "Unless I only make jokes to mask my pain." "I think you make jokes because you know that your funny and that even if the jokes are dumb people will still laugh."

And DAMMIT!! I TRIED TO FORGET EVERY LAST FUCKING KISS!!!

¨Now now Joshy...... Why couldn't you just play nice....... I guess ill have to taste some another way.¨ Before I could comprehend what he was saying a pair of soft pink lips smashed up against mine. I kissed him back because I knew it was useless to resist. He slid his tongue against my bottom lip and I opened my mouth letting him in. He moved his tongue around my mouth and started moaning in the sexiest was possible.

EVERY

"So you really want me to believe you aren't gay?" He whispered as he planted small kisses down my neck.

FUCKING!!

"Damn Josh it's so hot when you moan my name." Nick said in my ears I couldn't help but to moan for him again before he put his lips back on mine and kissed me again this time more forcefully.

............. kiss

The doctor came out and looked at us all with a frown on his face.

"I'm sorry......." he whispered out, and that was all I needed to hear.

You know that moment when time stops, and everything just stands still and it seems like your life flashes before you eyes but it's only the bad things you've done?

Well this is my time......

How...... could I have been so stupid.....

And now he's gone.

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Soooooo remember we're ALL family now okay okay!!!

*sees angry person pull out a gun*

I LOVE YOU GUYS IM SORRY!!!

*sees someone charge*

GOTTA ZAYN!!!