My Obnoxious Jock (BoyxBoy)

11. Secrets and Lies Part 1

I looked back up towards Jordan and Em and smiled tiredly. I knew that it was going to hurt and be hard but I also knew that Nick was right about most of the things he said.

He was wrong though about me deserving someone better. I'm going to work on getting better and hopefully he will to but when I get older and I get better I'm going to find him.

I love him and nothing will lessen my affection. I will get better and I will find him............ because he means the world to me.
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8 Months Later

Senior year........ what a pain in the ass.

The teachers seem nice but if you tick them off I swear their body becomes inhabited by a demon. Like no joke they could actually kill you and everyone would be like "oh their high school students, they probably deserve it."

It's been almost a year since I was at the hospital and a lot has changed. I have started therapy and medication for my depression and anxiety.

I've been clean from cutting for 6 months tomorrow and I'm so excited and happy. My mom finally called the cop on her husband and he was locked up so I was able to move back in.

She's honestly been the best mother ever and she promised that if I stayed clean for 6 months she would help me buy the car that I've had my eye on.

Emily and Jordan started dating (no shocker there) and have been going strong for almost a year and their relationship makes me want to puke. Probably because I'm not in a relationship but it's by choice.

I haven't heard from Nick sadly but I never loose hope in finding him again. I've talked to his parents and all they will tell me is that he's planning on coming back to the U.S. for college.

Speaking of college that is currently what Jordan, Em, my mom and I were currently looking at. We set aside a weekend to go and look at campuses for the colleges we got into.

I'm going to be going to UCSan Diego (picture above) In California and I'm actually really excited. It's warm and there will beaches and sun and I'm just really excited to be in California honestly.

Me and Mom are packing up now so we can go and pick up Em and Jordan and then we will hit the rode. We all took off Friday so we could leave Thursday night and arrive at Jordan's college tonight.

We figured that we would go to Jordan's college first and then Emily's on Saturday and mine on Sunday. We would all have a full day to check out the campus and talk to some professors hopefully.

I'm both nervous and also very excited. I'm happy that I made it this far, to the next stage of my life. If I would have died back then I wouldn't be able to see how amazing me future is looking.

"JOSHUA MARKUS CAMPBELL IF YOU AREN'T DOWN HERE IN 10 SECONDS IM LEAVING YOU HERE!!" My Mom yelled from the doorway.

"IM COMING GIVER OF BIRTH!!" I yelled back before zipping up my suitcase and carrying it downstairs.

I ended up tripping down the last stair and falling head over heels only to land right in front of my mom who was bent over laughing.

"You should have seen your face!!! That was the funniest thing ever!" My Mom said while I laid on the floor in pain.

You know what was hurt........ my ego......my pride......my ass.