My Obnoxious Jock (BoyxBoy)

10. Forgiveness

Josh's pov

Time seemed to stop as Nick loomed over me holding me in his arms. I looked into those beautiful eyes of his that appeared red and puffy like he had been crying a lot.

He slowly lifted me back up into the sitting position and yanked his hands off of me like I was on fire. I could see guilt swarming through his eyes and I bowed my head at the thought that it was my fault that he was like this.

"Joshy it's not your fault." Nick said looking up at me like I was crazy.

"B-but if I h-hadn't tried a-an-anything than y-you, w-we could, y-you wouldn't." I collapsed into Nicks arms as I broke down crying.

I hadn't cried since I woke up, in fact, I hadn't shown any emotions at all. All of my pent up emotions were flowing out of me all at once.

I felt Nick pick me up bridal style and carry me back to my room. He set me down on my bed and then sat with me since he had given up trying to pry my hands off of him.

"Joshy it wasn't your fault at all do you hear me? If you want to blame someone please blame me and Jordan. We let you down the one time you needed us and we couldn't see how stupid that was. We drove you to this point and made you feel like you were nothing and Joshy you are so much more than nothing!! I hate myself for what I did to you and I always will!"

I was staring wide eyed at Nick as he bared his heart out to me. I didn't know what to do so I used my actions instead of my words.

I cupped Nicks face in my hands wiping away his stray tears. I pulled his face closer to me and placed small kisses all over his face. I started with his forehead and then moved to both of his cheeks and then his eyes and last but not least his lips.

I lightly placed a kiss onto his lips before he leaned in and kissed me more passionately. I kissed back as he swiped his tongue against my bottom lip asking for entrance. I opened my mouth slightly as he darted his tongue forward and we started to battle for dominance, which obviously he won.

We pulled apart both fully out of breath and I admired how beautiful he was. His eyes were glossy and his cheeks were a bright pink color. His lips were beautiful and plump and slightly swollen from the pressure and heat of the kiss.

Nick rubbed his thumb against my lips and sighed before looking into my eyes. He was watching me as though he was trying to memorize every detail on my face.

I could tell by looking at him that something was wrong but I was scared to ask. I knew that whatever it was it must be bad being as he was looking at me like it was gonna be the last time.

"Nick? What's wrong?" I questioned cautiously.

"Nothing baby boy. You don't need to worry about me okay? You just need to worry about getting better for me. Can you do that?" I nodded meekly, thinking that I would do anything as long as Nick never looked at me like that again.

I honestly wanted to hate him for what he did but I couldn't bring myself to do it. The minute I saw how broken he looked I knew that he mirrored what I had looked like not to long ago.

I didn't want to be the cause of it and despite what he did I still felt love towards him.

I laid down on the hospital bed and wrapped my arms around Nicks strong torso before I drifted off to my first decent sleep in weeks.

"Hello? Is there anyone here?" I could heard the distant sound of someone screaming and I ran to see what the issue was.