BLSC #9 : His Cold Heart

Chapter 19 - Feelings

Stella Veros

I sat on the couch as Axel took the medical kit from the drawer. He walked to me and took off his suit from my body. He started to apply some cream to my scratches and the nail marks.

He looked at me and he held my chin moving my head to the right.

"She slapped you too?" Axel asked and I just stayed silent

"How can you let her do this?"

"I can't attack her, Axel. Your words kept repeating in my mind" I said and he closed his eyes sighing

"If she did this, you should slap her back, punch her back, kick her back. Not just stand there and do nothing. Why do you even listen to my words?" He bursted angrily

"Because you love her, I don't dare to do anything bad because you will be mad at me" I said truthfully and he looked at me disbelief.

After everything's done, he walked into his room. I leaned back to the sofa and closed my eyes. I'm tired.

"Wear this and stay here for tonight" He said and I opened my eyes. He threw me his black t-shirt. I got up and walked to the toilet and changed it. I laid myself on the sofa.

"Come here" I got up and turned to him. He gestured me to get into his room.

"I can sleep here, don't worry. I'm fi-"

"Just get inside" He said in cold tone. I got up and walked
towards him. We walked into his room and he gestured me to sit on the bed. He checked on my arms again and my cheek.

"Next time, beat her up"

"No" I said

"Beat her up, Stella!" He said in a warning tone

"How can I hurt the girl you love?" I looked up to him and he looked at me angrily. He closed his eyes and sighed.

"Is she the girl that I'm going to marry?" He asked and I shook my head

"Then you should know your place. You and I are going to get married. I won't be with her anymore so you need to protect yourself next time" He said and I found myself nodding. He walked into the bathroom and I just confused.

Axel walked out from the bathroom and I looked at him.

"Can I hug you?" I asked and he raised his eyebrows. I stood up and walked to him. I sneaked my arms around his hips and hugged him tightly.

Some part of me hates the fact that this guy still love his ex-girlfriend. I might be the girl who will marry him but his heart still on someone else. How can I even get married with this guy when he has another woman in his mind?

The fact that I'm going to marry this guy.. I started to open up my heart to him. I tried to learn to cook. I tried to set my eyes on him but that's only me. It was from my side only. Axel will never do that.

I take this marriage seriously, to be honest.. there's no divorce word in my mind. I just want to be a good wife but if he's still in love with woman. I can't do anything. I want to back off from this right now.

I felt Axel hug me back and he patted my back. I can feel his breathing and his manly smell. My heart was hurting knowing this man still have someone inside his heart. I know that I'm starting to put my heart in this fake marriage and I hate the fact that I'm starting to get weak.

There's 0% of chance that he will look at me or have feelings for me. He always said that I'm not his type, I'm reckless, annoying, stupid and things like that. Let's just say.. I have a one-sided love right now.

"I'll just sleep on the sofa, I don't want to disturb you here" I said as I released the hug.

"Just stay here with me, just for tonight" He said and I found myself nodding. We got on the bed and he out the blanket on me. He pulled my body to him and hugged me. I can't help but froze because we never been this close.

"Next time, defend yourself. I'm allowing you to hurt her. Kick her, punch her, slap her.. I won't be mad and I will stand on your side to defend you" That got me bad, I like this man. I realized it quite early but it was nothing at the start.

I care for him and I just love the fact that we're getting married and the fact that we're a couple.

"Stella.." He called

"Hmm?"

"Stella" He called again and I looked up to him

"Do you understand?" He asked

"Yeah"

"Good" He said and hugged me again. I closed my eyes and hugged him tighter. I was afraid that this is all just a dream. I wanted to slow the time now.

"I'll announce the wedding soon and we need to get a wedding ring later on" He stated

"Do you still want a wedding?" I asked

"What do you mean? We have to do it" He said and I got up and sat in front him. I looked straight to his eyes

"Do you want this?" I asked

"Yes, it was my decision from the start" He said firmly and seriously. I looked at him disbelief

"Why? You want to back off?" He asked and that question got me speechless.

"No" I said because I don't want to lose him yet. If I say yes.. there's no turning back. I won't be able to see him again because of his commitment. I want to cherish it a little bit more.

"That's what I thought" He said and I leaned my face to him.

"Can I kiss you?" I asked and he was the one who crashed his lips first to mine.