twenty seventeen part 2 bc i emotion a lot

overwhelmed and lonely

i'm sorry i can't tell you that the urges are back
because they're strong again
and i'm so lonely
always being compared to you,
never enough,
and it's all my fault - everything,
and i'll never be enough,
especially compared to you,
and the loneliness eats away at me
biting chunks from my heart
so forgive me if i'm distant again
my mind hurts and my ankle has that itch again
because the urges are back
and the silver is a beacon
shining